you are the sunshine of my life

sian day. had wanted to replace my ezlink this morning but i was too late to leave the house. nvm i'll do it tmr. followed debbie to redhill to collect her sharkie bag, and we realised there is two new extensions after boon lay station. pioneer and joo smth. wonder what's there haha. who cares. slacked around at pepper lunch and went home cos i had no work. and it's raining today! i kinda prefer rainy days to sunny days. haha.


okay im gonna list a whole list of things here that i wanna do.
1)karaoke!
2)get a cookbook on desserts/pastries and try the recipes!
3)go ecp to cycle/picnic
4)go sunny sentosa (to make my islander card worthwhile)
5)post pictures up on lookbook
6)perm hair (god i wanted to do this for ages)
7)replenish cosmetics
8)shop online
9)lose weight
10)watch movies!
11)replace damned ezlink
12)record a song (?)
13)earn more money
14)be a good girl and revise
15)be a bad girl and get a tattoo
16)eat at an icecream cafe!


omg there's so many things i wanna buy. shall list them here too.
1)new backpack for school
2)soft wooly jacket
3)patterned stockings
4)turtleneck top
5)cosmetics (from benefit and MAC hellokitty series!)
6)hermes tote (or the inspired one)
7)black jeans
8)wooden charm necklace
9)waterbottle
10)more dresses
11)more tops
12)more bottoms
13)more shoes


LOL. apparently everything i want to buy and do needs money! sighh. anyway im going to do number #8 on the first list now, hopefully i can strike off some things on the second list. lol.


its raining damn heavily now. what a perfect weather to sleep haha. bye!

and love fluttered away at
8:04 pm February 28, 2009

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oh god my blog is so deaddd. haha. recently ive been staying away from the computer and studying faithfully okay. math test on monday, was quite okay i guess. thanks dodo for teaching me how to do the freaking questions! econs test was on tuesday and i didnt have time to finish it. it sucked totally lol. and i had detention after school cos i was late for too many times. sucks to the maxxxxx. but the auntie was quite nice to us and just told us to sweep the floor. i heard others had to clean up the smelly storeroom or smth haha. okay who cares, there's chem test this friday and i havent started studying. my revision session with jean failed terribly and im so sick of life, there's pe tmr. kay enough, i promised to post some pictures so here they are (i montaged them tgt so i dont have to upload so many pictures haha):



this was taken on friday the 13th! went out with steph to celebrate vday together haha. took lotsa pics as usual but i'll save all of you from the ugly ones. ahahaha.



at changi airport with dodo! i brought my vaio baby and watched love 2000 on it ahaha. takeshi is hot to the maxxxxx. then we studied a bit. LOL.




(edit: can someone tell me why is this pic so small compared to the rest? it isnt suppose to be like that! it just shrank after i uploaded it! ):)
saturday at changi airport with dodo again! this time we studied only. i think changi airport has gotta be my favouritest place in singapore man. at least it's the furthest i can escape to. LOL. i dont know man, it feels different to be somewhere faraway from the usual places you go to. faraway from home. and seeing all the angmohs and foreigners there makes it feel like im not in singapore anymore haha.


okay im still owing the vday with pollies pictures, waiting for debbie to edit them haha. im so sorry for the mess in chronological ordering in this post! im just typing whatever that comes to mind now haha.


i realised i write too many emo posts, thus im gonna cut down on them and blog happy stuff. blogging happy stuff makes me happy lol. but what you dont see doesnt mean it doesnt exist. i shall just keep it to myself ya.


oh shocking news. ME AND DEBBIE WENT BACK TO JOIN CO LOL. after all the struggling to break free of it, we went back again haha. since we dont have an official cca now, and since they look like they need out help for the syf, we just join lor. may be quitting after syf though. well, another cert wont do any harm right lol. aiya dunno la. and seeing those random ppl joining co/daji feels kinda weird. like what's mine and what i belong to me belongs to others now. weird.


i just added on another ambition onto my dream list. i wanna be a globetrotter! and perhaps my own tv show introducing the countries. fun right! something like japan hour but for around the world you know. like 世界这么大 ahahaha. but like who will sponsor me sia. i need to start as a journalist? but i cant write well! sighh. i need lotsa money lol.


oh last friday we had pe at hortpark, like ran for 2km nonstop. and me, being the weak one with no stamina, almost had an asthma attack. scary okay! i felt this sharp pain in my chest and i was breathing very heavily. like weezing you know. and i had to stop running while the rest of the class continue. im not the kind who can run NONSTOP. and that day was very hot and sunny and i felt like fainting okay. I HATE RUNNING.


oh dearie me i realised i skipped dinner today. (?) siansation. i cant wait to get over and done with all the stupid tests. i want holidays forever! i want to perm my hair, go karaoke, go picnicking.....stupid school is forbidding me from doing so many things! in fact i cant wait for this two years to be over as soon as possible! grr.


omgomgomg there's so many things i wanna do! i think i'll be posting my to-do list soon haha. sians ive got a elit presentation tmr and i havent started on it yet. omg i better get going! bye everyone! oh please tag! at least im not talking to the wall. lol. bye!

and love fluttered away at
8:51 pm February 25, 2009

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hi everybody, Peggy is currently too busy with school to blog. there is so much homework to do! and tests are starting this friday. and to add on, Peggy is terribly sick with a sore throat, flu, headache and stomachache. or maybe just plain sick of school. thus, Peggy is extremely sorry for not blogging more often. there are alot of pictures to be posted up so it might take more time. Peggy shall blog after tests are over alright? meanwhile, please enjoy this funny video that Peggy is currently addicted to:





till then, tata!

and love fluttered away at
10:36 pm February 17, 2009

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okay too many emo posts for the past few days so today i shall spare all of you from my nonsense. remember my cartoon maggi mee? i bought the other version and took pictures awhile ago. was lazy to post it up but here it is:



this time is the fox and the pig one haha. the previous time was the dog and the panda, if you remembered.



look at the cute packaging of the noodles!



the seasoning....



ive tried all flavours! haha.




can you see the pigs and the foxes? lol.




piggies and foxies! in case you are wondering what are those thingy, they are just fishcakes. lol.


and they taste quite nice! the pig one is curry, but since its for kids, it's not spicy at all! but still have the curry smell la. and the fox one tastes like miso. haha. both are nice la!


okay today school sucked and i have a headache. goodbye.

and love fluttered away at
9:46 pm February 11, 2009

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"USAGE

The concession card must be carried as proof of eligibility when traveling on the MRT/LRT/bus in order to enjoy travel concession. School uniforms do not prove students' eligibility for travel concession.

If you forget to bring your concession card or if your concession card has expired, please pay adult cash fare or use a valid Adult ez-link card.

If you are a concession card holder and intend to pay cash, please let the bus driver know. Then tap your ez-link card at the reader for verification of the card’s validity before you drop your cash into the farebox."

WHAT THE FUCK.
anyone wants to join me to sign a freaking petition to change this damned rule?

fuck it la. i planned to sleep at 9 today and look at the time now. i just finished my freaking GP articles thingy, super sleepy now. grr. bye.

and love fluttered away at
12:24 am February 10, 2009

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had a bloodied day today. this morning when i boarded the bus, i paid 55c in coins as i lost my ezlink. and the bloody bus driver demanded i showed him my bus pass, if not i had to pay adult fare. hello, im wearing my uniform mind you. im still a bloody student. and he said he doesnt care, no bus pass no student fare. WHAT THE FUCK. if i had my bus pass, i wouldnt be bloody paying in coins fucker. ive been doing this for so many days and none of them has demanded me to show my bus pass. he didnt even ask for it politely la wtf. and hello, i was wearing my fucking student uniform if you noticed. did you think i was some retarded adult that posed as a student to avoid paying the adult fare. whatever la, fuck you. i wanna complain him but i didnt catch his bus number or whatever. damn pissifying. like what a good way to start the bloody day. and i had to pay $1.20 in the end. and to add on, he fucking printed the receipt for $1 only. FUCK YOU LA UNCLE. if i see you again you bloody watch out. i hope you get into an accident after i got off your fucking bus. grr.


and the rest of the day, was a shithole la. ended at 2 and quickly rushed off to meet steph at amk macs. i miss that girl man. though we didnt meet for long, we talked and talked and i felt a bit happier. oh, i called CJ and they said they "couldnt fit my appeal into the classes, no space blah blah". so i said "in short, my application is reject right?" and they said "im sorry we cannot accept your application for the time being." simidai. reject then say reject la. it's a yes or no thing what. at least make me stop thinking about going to cjc. for the past few weeks ive been waiting for some news or whatever from them but they never did call me to tell me anything. wth. should have told me from the start they dont want to accept me la. aiya wtf la. see i cant even transfer out of fucking rv. life has to do this to me. shit happens. now im thinking of transferring to poly seriously. the thought of staying in rv for the next two years makes me depressed to the maxxx. argh!!! why isnt anything going right for me! D:


in short, life sucks and im so sick of it. oh thanks jean for the lovely cardigan. gotta do my fucking GP homework now. bye.

and love fluttered away at
8:33 pm February 09, 2009

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i dont know what's wrong with me but i've been on a permanent emo mode these few days. (yeesthisisanothermotherfuckingrantentry). i realised im neither here nor there. in almost every aspect. in school, im not really very smart but im not really very lousy either. im not really very fat but im not really very thin either. amelia prefers popo over me but she still wants to play with me anyway. im not really very important to some people but im not really very unimportant at the same time. or at least i think. its like im trying so hard to be the peggy that's nice to everyone, showering love and care as much as i can. but do i get them in return? or rather, when you are bored and needed somebody to talk to, will i be the first person you think of to call? i guess not. even if you really do call, i think that's because your first didnt pick up your phone or is currently unavailable at the moment. and when i ask you out, did you think of asking your first to go along too, even when i didnt mention it? its so weird, my firsts has become their firsts. it really sucks to know that i dont have anybody who will really sit down and listen to what i have to say when i want to talk to somebody. nobody can have the best of both worlds, someone will get hurt in the end. so you know what? im throwing in the white flag.


if you realised, i dont like to go out in groups. i prefer going out with just another person, like one-to-one. i think that's because i dont like the feeling of being left out in conversations and everything, like who doesnt right. and one-to-one gives me the chance to really actually talk to the person. call me a loner/antisocial/hermit, but whatever la. you know what i mean.


and i think the biggest regret i have for the past few months is meeting _. _ broke my friendship with one of my closest friend and also broke my freaking heart. now looking back on it, i feel like such a loser crying over _ and having sleepless nights because of _. and everytime i hear a news about _ or see how happy they are together, my heart cringes sour. its so heartbreaking to see the one you love so happy with your best friend. it's like i never knew the two of them. i guess partly is my fault for being too careless and infatuated. but not anymore, love is loved now. im moving on.


and last night, i dreamt that cjc called me and said my application has failed. one hell of a nightmare i tell you. i almost woke up crying.i think the reason why im so desparately trying to transfer to cjc is because im actually trying to run away from things. im too afraid and tired to face them. i want a new environment where i can start all over again. a place where i can really be me.


so sick of life. i havent done my 6 GP articles which i was suppose to hand up last friday. and look at the time now. i cancelled out on work today cos there's lo hei later. fuck it la. i really just wanna wither and die man.


i need to stop feeling so depressed. i dont want to either. it's just uncontrollable. i want to have fun. i want to be happy. i want to be loved. i want to be free. i want to be like how i was like before. i want to be me.


random, but here's a picture to cheer you up after reading the shitload of text above. ignore the above if you want anyway.

i want a baby too man. at least i'll know my baby will love me as much as i love him/her.


bye.

and love fluttered away at
5:08 pm February 08, 2009

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hello everyone. sorry for my blog being so dead lol. it's february now... so i thought maybe i shall post some pictures. totally random one okay. lol.



me during chinese new year at some temple in malaysia. pardon the umbrella cos it was freaking hot. like burning sia. and yes, that's my cheongsam haha. pretty right!



my grandmother's house in malaysia has three dogs. this one is called brownie. he's super active and naughty and always snatch food from the other dog. when you pet the other dogs, he will squeeze his nose over to lick your hand, wanting some affection too. haha. oh, i was using the fisheye jellylens here.



this is bonnie. she's the oldest one there. very calm and obedient. she doesnt run around crazily or bark like the other two. lol.



this is fifi. his name had a very sad story behind it. he was free, given by some neighbours i think. then his name was initially freefree. and then it became fifi. LOL. crazy black doggy.




random cup i thought was quite cute. haha the crocodile.



unglam picture of me eating (?)



me and dodo on the bus. why do i look so sick of life sia.



my sideview. (?)


okay that's all for the random photos. and yes, im still in bloody rv. i wanna transfer! cjc said they gotta process the postings and appeals and see if there's vacancies first. ): will call them again sometime this week, perhaps tmr. stephanie says its quite fun there lol. but i'll be missing the fun orientation anyway? aiya dunno la. so sick of life.


okay gotta go sleep. there's cca tmr and i have to bring the fucking guitar. goodbye.

and love fluttered away at
10:25 pm February 03, 2009

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