farewell my friends

wah sian. we had the english literature test this morning. well, all i can say that is im glad the exams are over. lol. time to celebrate! my ass la. my results are stressing me to study for the end of years. whatever, i still need to take a break first lol.


i want to transfer to a junior college leh. im so sick of RV. im lagging behind in exams and i dont like the people in the school. although i must say some teachers are lovable (mr suria, mr lee), some are really...*ahem*. and i fear for my life, being on just a borderline pass. i dont know if i can even get promoted. sians. even if i do, it's gonna get harder in year 5 and 6. sigh. i know i just have to work harder and concentrate more on my studies but i seriously dont really like the school environment. i dont know why either. i want to go to a jc where i'll meet new people and make new friends and have a whole new change of environment. someplace like sajc or cjc or ajc. i dont wanna travel all the way to boonlay next year everyday when the school moves back to its old campus. I DONT WANT LA! I HATE TRAVELLING TO THE WEST SIDE OF SINGAPORE. it's so bloody far from my house. -.- SIAN AH SIBEI SIAN AH.


but anyway, i was shopping around for binsing's present with debbie and decided to pop by bobbibrown to ask if they had my eyeliner instock. AND HOLYMOLY YES THEY DO! WAHOO!



haha yay! im so happy. and i just received a email saying my make up brushes are being mailed out already. yay! can't wait to receive them haha. then i can try everything i bought. lol.



oh, we went daiso and i found the custard pudding mix too! exactly the same sia! wahlau i got cheated of my money in meidi-ya la. daiso $2 only leh lol. i bought the other flavours from the same brand, almond pudding and soymilk pudding. havent tried them though, but looks delicious from the box. ahaha. i'll try them soon. :D


im still so disheartened. I CANNOT FIND ANYBODY TO SELL MY CONCERT TICKETS TOO. peixian is gonna kill me la, i havent sold any yet. not that im not working hard enough to find people, i am okay! i sent the sms to more than a 100 people from my phonebook randomly and only less than 10 replied. and half of them asked me who am i, some said they were busy(overseas, camp, function) and some said they are not interested. SIANS LA. even none of my family or relatives are going to watch. and i thought i would end of co days gloriously and memorably with friends and family watch my last day of performance. not anymore.


today is a damn shitful day la. i've got the fucking running nose that wouldn't stop. i've used up many packets of tissue already. it's that kind where your throat is sore, your head is spinning, your nose feels painful from all the blowing, you eyes feel watery and itchy....I NEED TO GRAB SOME SLEEP.


aiya sian. tomorrow could have been a beautiful day for my to rest well and prepare for my last day of practise and the concert, but no! there's cid and im getting so intolerant with it. sians la. should have sign up for another cid topic okay. everyone else seems to have so much fun. -.- but never mind! i'll be having a sumptious dinner with dodo after that. lol. it's been a long time since i ate dinner with her, or did we even eat dinner together before? haha! whatever la! oh btw, i'll won't be posting till sunday as i'll be busy with the concert. i will post pictures of the concert on sunday okay? see ya! <3

and love fluttered away at
9:32 pm August 27, 2008

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hello everyone! the performance this morning went quite smoothly, but there were very little people. -.- but i mean like, who would go all the way to singapore conference hall to watch a performance 9am on a monday morning? lol. i think the audience filled up less than a quarter of the seats. damn pathetic haha. but who cares la, as long as it's over. oh, the little children from ngee ann primary are damn cute! they are the percussionists from their co and they performed a percussion solo called "lion". we played that before too but i think their version sounds better. and there's this little boy who's damn hyper and cute and he looks like a mini version of jay with a very cheeky, naughty face. ahaha. damn squeezable.


which reminds me, i've only got 5 more days till the end of my co days. im so excited! but actually, im feeling quite...erm...i don't know how to say it. a BIG part of me wants to wash my hands off fucking co forever but at the same time, i'll be missing all my fellow percussionists. they are such a cute bunch of people and despite the shittiness of co, there are some moments we spent together that i enjoy. i miss our percussion area in the co room, where we hogged almost a third of the room and had special privileges like being able to bring our bags in(the other sections had to leave the bags outside, even when it's raining) and sleep at a secluded corner where nobody can see us. we can even rush our homework, eat biscuits, use handphone, play games, talk and nobody will know. i have to say percussion is damn slack and the best section to be in. haha. and also, our instructor is also damn slack. sometimes, we can even spend hours talking to him and not practising anything. haha. but oh well, those would be the happy memories i'll never forget but for now, im still quitting co so siyuan and weilin, don't even think about talking me out of it. lol.


went to orchard to shop for pearly's present with dodo after school. we walked around for quite long and couldnt find anything suitable. and then i got distracted and started buying my own things. guess what i bought?











YES MAKE UP LIKE OMG. i couldnt resist the urge anymore haha. everytime i pass by some make up counters i'll always be hoping to get something from there. i've made a little list of the things i wanted and so far, im still short of a few. my bobbibrown eyeliner was out of stock! but the kind guy at the counter said he would call me if they had new stocks. :D and yea, i bought quite alot actually, keep whipping out my atm card. D: i dont wanna calculate how much i spend on all these as i know it won't be a very nice number to see on your bankbook. lol. but im damn happy to buy things for myself la. *excited cheer* can't wait to try them lol. oh! i finally ordered my coastal scents brushes. please arrive faster! lol. back to the topic, yea we bought something for pearly. i hope she liked what i bought cause i was contemplating whether to get one for myself too. ahaha. :)


something random: i hate people asking questions about where im going, who im meeting, who am i talking to on the phone/online...i think it's damn annoying. IF I HAD INTENDED TO TELL YOU, I WOULD HAVE DONE SO. i mean, though i've got nothing much to hide, but i certainly do require abit of privacy. i don't have to report to you every single thing about my whereabouts and doings do i? it's just a basic need, to have my own space. and i hate people who read my smses and scroll through my photos on my phone without my permission. I THINK THAT'S FUCKING ANNOYING AND RUDE. but seriously, i dont have anything interesting or gossip-worthy in there. and also, i hate it when my mother/brother or whoever stands behind me while im using the computer and see what im doing. though im not surfing some porn website or doing something shameful, it's just that i don't like my entire life to be exposed to others. i enjoy freedom and i think people should just respect that. i dont go around asking everybody every single detail on their lives, if they want to talk to me about it, they will. though im actually blogging about my life here, there's still so much more that i deliberately left out. well, a blog is never personal, i still have to consider the consequences on the things that i write, on whether that was too much information or whether it would cause conflict or upset someone in anyway. haha i sound so weird in this paragraph wth. but usually if you don't ask too much, i'll tell you. if you keep asking, please go far far away from me la. like my mother, always asking about me. -.-


and oh my dear friends, if you're wondering why am i blogging here and not online on msn, my msn is fucked up again. i can't log in. so yea. i can't talk to anybody. it always happens and i hate it. time for me to change a new com.


honestly, i feel quite guilty on today's expenditure. there's still a literature exam in another two days and i can't really enjoy in peace. it's bugging me at the back of my brain. and i've got to start revising on the stupid book now. maybe tonight i'll start. sheesh. alright time to go then. toodles!

and love fluttered away at
8:50 pm August 25, 2008

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hello everyone! it's been a long time since i posted! lol. been really busy with cca. i've to be in school by a bloody 6am tomorrow. lol. i dont know how am i gonna wake up and make my way there. take taxi maybe? sigh. it's for some MOE concert and we'll be skipping half a day of lessons. lol. then there is our concert this coming saturday. the evening show is sold out(or so i heard), but there's still an afternoon show! it's free seating and it's only $10! so please contact me with you want to watch it! :D


it's been raining so much these few days. yesterday i felt so cold i wear knee high socks under my long pants to sleep. ahaha! feels like winter okay. but i like these kind of weather, perfect for snuggling in bed the whole day doing nothing. just staring into space and lazing around. which reminds me, i've got a literature exam this wednesday which i haven't started studying. hosay liao la. lol.


i want to change my blogskin! but i dont know how to go about doing it. i want to design a skin myself but i dont know how to. lol. and what colours and themes should i choose? pop art? retro? baroque? i dont know lol. never mind, i'll figure it out soon. lol.


anybody wants to go to the ettusais beauty workshop with me? it's held on the 6th of september, saturday, 10.30am to 12.30pm or 3pm to 5pm. it is a two hour hands-on session where they will teach you how to create different make up looks. there's a free door gift with light refreshments as well. so how? anybody up for it? it's $30 but it's fully redeemable if you purchase their products. it's like you get a $30 voucher and you can attend the workshop. lol. sounds interesting! i want to go leh, somebody go with me! lol. btw, i think ettusais is a sub brand of shiseido. so should be quite promising. :D


alright i shall go off now. sorry i've got no pictures to post recently. lol. maybe i'll post one on the concert haha. goodbye! <3

and love fluttered away at
6:52 pm August 24, 2008

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disclaimer: the following post is going to be very random with a whole chunk of words and no pictures. so please feel free to not read it if you dont want to. thanks.


im so confused with the world i dont know what to do with it. if you gave me a paper and asked me to write down what im troubled with at the moment, i think i'll be able to write a novel instead. IM SO DISTRESSED AT THE MOMENT. well, our class got back the chemistry paper already but i dont know my marks yet cause i left the class early for rehearsal. i want to know my chemistry marks! i know some of you might say it's better not to know, but i can't sleep tonight like that. i want to know how much i scored! oh, congratulations to dodo for topping the class in chemistry!


i dont know man. i think im going crazy. bonkers. insane. GRAHH. i hate how practical the world is. everyone strives so hard to do better, to be the best and ourdo everybody so that they will stand out from the crowd, graduate in some prestigious university and be a respected banker or lawyer so just some high position. i know that's almost everyone's ideal life, to earn alot of money and be very smart. but i hate how practical it is! as in, i know it's good to be smart, you'll lead a easy life next time. but what about extraordinary things! like why is there no room for professional make up artist or maybe a musician or a painter? are what they are doing very bad and useless? why cant society just be more appreciative of them and give them their well-deserved acclamation and recognition as well? do they really think a painting is very easy to draw? or a piece of music is very easy to compose? i think all these are even more difficult then all the academic subjects as these need not only their creativity but also their heart and soul. it's not something that just can be done by studying and listening attentively in class. thanks. what am i talking about.


i realised i dont have a niche in anything. im not good at languages, my essays and comprehensions suck. my math and science are considered average, not very good and not very bad either. in fact, i think they are deproving at an alarming rate. my SS no need to say already la. i can't draw well. i can't play the piano well. i can't sing nor dance. i sucked at sports. i'm not pretty nor skinny. i'm not rich. i'm not sweet not gentle. what the hell am i doing in this world. i dont have any aspects im particularly proud of that im good in. im so sick of life.


and my mother. i dont know what she wants okay. she expects so highly of me, it's getting me so stressed. she actually wants me to top the class or level. like wth. it's not like her daughter is some genius or child prodigy. there's a limit to everything and if i can't top the class. I CAN'T. would she just stop comparing me with other people, like how others will diligently study and go for tuition and have friends that study all the time too? i mean those bookworms have no life okay. does looking at books the whole day makes them happy? i dont mean i have an interesting life, but at least, more interesting than them right. maybe not. but will she just stop it a not. i know she wants me to get into university and everything, i want to also what, like who doesnt. it's not like im dropping out of school totally, or that my results are very bad. but she's just never satisfied with my marks. even if i get As. i dont know what does she want and im tired of scoring well just to please her. i mean, im studying for myself and my future. i want to do well so my future would be abit brighter. but all her naggings also wont get me anyway so would she just stop it. STOP IT.


i want to lead an extraodinary life. as in, not the stereotypical banker, then marry and have children. i care alot about job satisfaction. i want to do something i have an interest in, i have a passion for. (actually i dont mind a banker job earning big bucks but im stopping myself from being practical.) my passion? im not quite sure yet. i dont mind being a make up artist but they dont earn much unless i do it for superstars. (shit, i dont wanna be practical.) hais. i still have alot of thinking and shifting of priorities to do.


im nobody's priority. i know i sound very self-centered and selfish but i really want someone out there that's willing to sacrifice anything for me, thinking about my firstly all the time. i sound like such a motherfucking princess lol. i mean like, if i and you were on the boat and it was drowning, and one of us will have to jump off into the sharks-infested waters, will you? haha i dont think so. everybody's too busy to care about me, or that they already have their priority in life. or at least, other people to care for. aiya, i sound so obnoxious and stubborn here, self-opinionated and insensitive. sorry everybody, im feeling very crazy tonight.


hmm, why is it always when im all ready to write out my sorrows, i always have so little to say. all these are not even half of what i wanted to say. i think im just not good with words. but i think alot and feel alot and that's not good. not good at all.


aiya i shan't say so much la. im just reading too much into things. dodo is right, i need to unwind and relax for abit. let's go have fun in the holidays love! why cant the friggin december holidays come faster. grr.


oh btw, i wanted to order my stuff from the coastal scents website, but i forgot the password for my paypal. im so sad i think im not fated to get them. to think i was so excited and happy i can finally order them. sheesh.


goodbye my fellow comrades!

and love fluttered away at
9:35 pm August 21, 2008

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i think i sorta screwed my math test today. i know i made alot of mistakes. ohwell, no point thinking about it, i should worry for my physics tmr instead. went to study(yes, this time productive! :D) with dodo at island creamerie today! it's been along time since i've been there. we ate the apple pie with nutella ice cream and the mini baked alaska. it's heavenly okay! the apple pie is very soft and it crumbles in your mouth, and the baked alaska is creamy with a little burnt sugar smell. lol! oh, we shared an ice cream on a rainbow-sprinkles-coated chocolate cone too! and that one was the reverso flavour, damn nice. :D


i think im getting fat la. im eating so much these few days. and i dont exercise! i eat, sleep, sit at the com for hours, watch tv, eat somemore, sleep... HOW! i feel all my fats forming lol. and i feel heavier! SHIT. everyone please remind me to stop eating so excessively!


but it's had to stop eating when there are so many delicious food around me! my auntie just went hongkong and she brought back boxes of laopobing and mooncakes! why mooncakes, i wonder too. the lunar 7th month is not evern over yet! but nonetheless, it's so scrumptious. yummy yummy in my tummy. no wonder all my fats are out to say hi. sians.


i want to do so many things after the exams! well, at least i want to spend my september holidays having fun and just pure enjoyment. i want to do all these:
1) start on my great make up endeavour (should i purchase online or from shops?)
2) shopping!
3) finally get down and start on my shoots
4) lose weight! (exercise more?)
5) kboxing!
6) iceskating! (havent tried it before lol)
7) bowling? (well, it's been a LONG time...)
8) eat at fancy restaurant! (but that contradicts my diet plan)
9) perm my hair! (benn always wanting to do it)
10)practise my piano more often
11)earn more money! (open sprees or something)


lol. i dont think i can complete all these in the one week holidays. haha. but i want to celebrate the end of common tests! before i face the wrath of it again when i get back the results. D: sigh, dont wanna think about it.


gotta study for physics. i havent memorise my formulas. DDDD: goodbye my lovers!

and love fluttered away at
11:04 pm August 19, 2008

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hello my friends! well today we had the chemistry exam in the morning. i personally feel it is quite okay, not too hard but not too easy. lol. whatever la, at least i dont have to touch chem until the next exam again. lol. tomorrow is math, went to jessica's house after the paper today to study. well, "study". we ended up playing games on the computer and sleeping! lol, like slacking all the way, didnt do any productive work at all haha. never mind la, i'll study for abit before i sleep later. but it's raining now and it's such a good weather for sleeping. grr.


oh btw, jessica's house is uber pretty! the condo has alot of animal statues and it feels like africa. haha. and her room has the sort of orange lighting which makes anyone in the room feel very sleepy and lazy. no wonder we couldnt study anything! lol. oh well. we will do a better job next time alright jess? :D


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doesnt it sounds totally cool? just take a picture of some creative thingy and stand a chance to win a camera! and the 1st prize, digital EOS 1000D, is no ordinary camera mind you. it's this:

damn cool right! can you imagine how much fun you can have with it lol. well, i dont really know photography, but i think it's damn cool to own one of these. haha. but i dont think i can win it lah, i dont have any ideas for my creative shot. anyone please help me! the deadline is next sunday though, i dont know if there's still time. i hope i can take part in this cause i missed the chance to win a ipod in the previous apple contest as well as the 2nd meme one. D:


then again, look at laoniang's face. ive got no talent in creative photography or whatsoever, i'll just be losing lol. aiya just for the fun of it, you never know. *hopeful gleam*


alright, time to study for math. cant wait for exams to be over, cant wait for august to be over, cant wait for school to be over. sighs.


ps: my mum cooked broccoli-potato-pork-porridge for amelia and it's damn delicious. yes, i stole some from her again. =X

and love fluttered away at
9:12 pm August 18, 2008

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there's chemistry exam tomorrow and i havent started revising! i feel so lazy, i woke up, watch tv, eat breakfast, bathe, watch tv, eat lunch, surf the net till now. siansation.


i was looking at my little organiser and i realised the earthshattering truth. for the next two weeks, there's cca 8 times. well not all of them are cca, two days are for the performance and one for a rehearsal and the rest is all cca. SIAN. but then again, after this two weeks, i'll be freed from the evils of co forever. *cry of victory*


and yea, im not over with my enthusiasm over cosmetics yet. im gonna get a whole new set of make up! well so far, ive decided on the primers, foundation, eyeliner, powder, highlighter, lippie and brushes! woohoo! oh i havent decided on the eyeshadows and blushers though. any recommendations? :D oh, anyone who is interested like me too, please feel free to talk to me! i want to talk to somebody about it but all my friends around seem so busy studying. D: i dont know whether i should buy them personally from their shops or order on the website. lol. i think i'll decided after the exams. bloody exams faster end la.


okay, i see my pile of chemistry notes beckoning for me. toodles!
last night i dreamt that i talk to you again and a feeling of nostalgia filled my mind. bitter sweet.

and love fluttered away at
5:31 pm August 17, 2008

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hello loves! went for co in the morning (at 8.30am duh) and guess what? THEY TOLD ME TODAY'S PRACTICE ENDS AT 2! yea i was like wtf?! the paper clearly stated 12.30pm! and luckily i didnt arrive at 7.30am cause when i reached i still saw people streaming in -.- . co is the bane of my life okay, and yea, i didnt stay to 2 though. they didnt tell me beforehand or anything so im not gonna just conform to what they say. and what's more, studying for the exams are more important then performing. friggin co. after the performance i'll vow never to attend any co-related things anymore.


yea, so after 12.30pm, i went to a apple strudel cafe to study with debbie! well, i wanted to go home and study but debbie asked me to teach her some math. i wanted to study chemistry but we ended up talking and eating. lol, i told you i cant achieve anything studying with others. but anyway, the apple strudel was very nice!



everytime i eat an apple strudel, i'll ask "what's the proper way of eating an apple strudel?". seriously, i want to know! it's too thick for me to bite it like a hamburger. am i suppose to eat it layer by layer? like the top crust first then the apple custard then the middle crust then the apple custard and then the bottom crust? i dont know haha! but all matters is that it gets into my mouth so that i can eat it lol.



we shared some vanilla cream puffs too! they look so adorable right? and they are damn small! it's $3 for a box of 10 if im not wrong. haha. little pieces of heaven. :D


btw, i think im going crazy. i have this sudden overwhelming interest for cosmetics. well, ive been interested in make up for very long actually, but it's just suddenly i feel the make up artist in me waiting to be freed. lol. as in, not maybe as a career, but more of an interest. i get very amaze by how cosmetics does wonders for the face, like how it can contour and highlight your features and stuff like that. my point is, i feel like investing my money to some professional make up. i know it sounds like a waste of money, seeing that im just 16 and i dont have the need to do so, but it's all of interest. my hobby. i dont see anything wrong in spending your own hard-earned money to pamper yourself with something you like. it's like how i'll always splurge a birthday gift for myself. i think i love myself too much lol. maybe i'll put aside this thought for the moment and save more money first. i think i should concentrate on my exams for now. sigh.


but hey, i was looking at the Coastal Scents website i linked from ms-janelle and im so fascinated. i feel like getting make up brushes! lol. so i was just shopping around the website, adding to the cart whatever item i fancied. and then the price added up till $30. $30 US DOLLAR. haha hosay liao la, but im still contemplating whether i should buy it. ANYBODY WANTS TO JOIN ME TOO? im suddenly feeling so hyper and enthusiastic, somebody please stop me from my nonsense lol.


i scour through the internet and read reviews on which brand of cosmetics is the best and blah blah. and then i made a list of the brands that attracted me and added it to my wishlist. sians, i can already foresee my money flying away already haha. OH ANYONE KNOWS WHERE THERE'S A SALE OR A SPREE TO GET COSMETICS? PLEASE TELL ME TYVM! i so wanna get them! D:


alright i shall stop my nonsense now. before i go off, everyone please try HEINZ STRAWBERRY YOGHURT DESSERT. yes, it's baby food(yes i stole it from amelia again) but it's not the least bit bland or tasteless. in fact, it taste like a thicker and sourer(such a word?) version of our yoghurt, really! haha i was surprised at the taste too, never knew babies ate such delicious food. haha.


tata dears!


PS: i realised there's a new ad on my nuffnang ad unit on the left! it's the WALL-E movie one! do you see it? i wanna watch the movie! i love disney productions. :D oh, please be a darling and click on the ad! play the games there! sounds abit loser but it's damn fun! im playing the help wall-e clear the trash one, then have to stablize the structure. ahaha! please go play it! i'll send flying kisses to you! <3

and love fluttered away at
9:26 pm August 16, 2008

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okay, like usual, let me rant first before posting on something interest. the ss test today was -.- . i have this bad premonition im gonna fail it again. sigh. but this time i wrote very long answers, i hope i didnt go out of point. =


im getting very intolerant for co. apparently, there was co after the paper today, but it starts at 2.30. the paper ends at 9.30. what about the 5 hours in between? haha no i didnt go for it, but i didnt pon it. i wasnt aware there was co. i went home early, happily thinking finally i could get some rest and relax from the exam stress. and then weilin smsed me at around 12 to say there's co later. of course i wouldnt be so stupid to go all the way back to school and attend some fucking(pardon me.) co right? it wasnt my fault you didnt inform me earlier, and i didnt receive any msges or anything yesterday. and by right, there shouldnt be cca during exam period, and im already considered a half member, cause im washing my hands off co after the performance(which now im not really looking forward to. look at my tickets sale.). and i vividly remember weilin saying there's no co today on tuesday's practice. SO CAN SOMEBODY ACCOUNT FOR THE UNREASONABLE SUDDEN PRACTICE? and im not finished with it. tomorrow there's practice in the morning too. SATURDAY MORNING HELLO? I NEED MY REST AND MY SLEEP TYVM. but i understand because we have two performances(concert and the MOE one) coming up, so we need additional practices on saturday. okay, yes it's stated on the practice form. BUT WHO EVER SAID I NEED TO REACH SCHOOL BY 7.30AM?! it's bad enough i need to go back to school on a saturday. i need the day to rest and revise for my chem,math and physics. AND TO ADD ON TO MY POINT, THE FUCKING(pardon me again.) FORM SAYS PRACTICE STARTS AT 8.30AM AND ENDS AT 12.30PM. so im gonna follow the form and go to school at 8.30 okay, no 7.30 nonsense. and going to school wastes more than 4hours apart from the practice time. i spend around 3 hours travelling to and fro from home to school. like wth? WITH SEVEN HOURS I CAN DO SO MANY THINGS. that's why im getting so intolerant for co. sheesh.


okay, now that's a load off my chest. haha. time for the cool part! i've got a picture of my zhnged phone lol.




CHIO BOH? pretty right haha! looks abit ahlian but who cares lol. my mother says its ugly though. but i quite like it haha! and after spending one hour doing all these, i still had some jewels left. so got carried away and i zhnged the accesories too!




issnt this the coolest earphones you ever seen lol. and the mini shuffler looks quite cool too ahaha! matches with my phone!



im so proud of my creation lol. and guess what's the best part? i only spent $5 on all these. *jawdrops* COOL RIGHT AHAHA! never expected i would find such a lobang lol. im gonna go back to purchase more jewels and zhng my camera, my calculator, my computer... ahaha.


remember i posted a picture on the cartoon maggi mee i bought from meidi-ya? ive decided to eat it today! reluctantly though.



this is like the cutest seasoning packet i ever seen. ahaha!



and yes, the noodles are for kids. hence the microscopic portion. the cup is very small!



OMG. look at the little pandas. -squeals



i think the pandas are actually fish cakes. cant really taste anything much due to the small size. haha.



seriously, i couldnt bear eating the noodles when the pandas are looking at me ever so cutely. i hesitated for a very long time!



stirred the noodles and more of its friends floated up. TOTAL CUTENESS.


well, in the end i still ate it lol. in fact, i finished it in three mouthfuls, literally. haha! so that was like 5minutes of joy and entertainment for me. i was still hungry though. lol.


okay, now it's time for the game of the day! GUESS WHAT'S THIS!

need a clue? it has something to do with broccoli, carrots, pumpkins, potatos and amelia(my baby niece).


look at its gooey texture! could it be what amelia vomited? or baby poo?


ahaha, the answer is...

IT'S BABY FOOD!



well, my mother used the blender and blend all the ingredients together for amelia. sounds and looks disgusting right? but actually it tasted quite yummy! yea i finished that whole bowl lol. but it sure looks abit like vomit. lol.


i had an energizing nap of four hours in the afternoon, now im feeling so wide awake! but everytime i think that i have to go co tomorrow, ZZZ.



"真的是伤脑筋啊！" even amelia is so troubled.


oh, congratulations to lijiawei for winning a medal in the olympic games. SHE'S POWERFUL MAN! finally for so long, Singapore has won another medal. WOOHOO! i watched the swimming heats and michael phelps swims like a torpedo man. lol.


alright, i shall go linger around for awhile before facing the bane of my life tomorrow. goodbye sweets!

and love fluttered away at
10:46 pm August 15, 2008

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oh no, i think i just screwed the english exam today. it was a comprehension and i sucked at it. i prefer writing compos instead. and for the summary question, i think i left out many points. D: aiya never mind la, i should worry more for SS tomorrow. damn UN and ASEAN, making my life so difficult. hais.

what has happened to you? i feel like i dont know you anymore.
btw, i zhnged my phone! havent got a picture yet but i'll post it soon. my mother thinks it's ugly but i think it's rather nice. lol.


can't wait for exams to be over so i can go out and have fun. in fact, i can't wait to graduate from RV. im getting so sick of it. there's nothing much i can look forward to. the students, the teachers, cca(havent started guitar but i hope it's okay)...and next year, the school is going to move to boon lay. I HATE TRAVELLING TO THE WEST SIDE OF SINGAPORE. i dont know why either, i prefer central and the east. beats me.


life would be so interesting after i graduate two years later. a change of environment, be it a new university, a new country(if im studying overseas), new people, new life. and maybe i'll be flying high in the skies and travelling around the world with sia. lol. two more years, hais.


oh im so disheartened. NOBODY WANTS TO WATCH MY PERFORMANCE. i feel so unloved. and cldds people, not that im against all of you. but i really dont want to watch the
drama. one reason is because ive got no money and the other reason is because ive got no interest. nobody wants to watch my concert anyway too lol.


i realised im listening to piano ballads, bossa nova and lounge music recently. i like the soft melody and the lyrics that go with it always seem so meaningful. everyone please listen to olivia ong! she's so talented! she's a singaporean singer based in japan, and her voice is very clean and beautiful. and she's only 22! listen to "sweet memories", it's a japanese song and it's very nice. ;D





gotta study some SS before i go to sleep. wish me luck everyone! i'll need it. D:

and love fluttered away at
9:17 pm August 14, 2008

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a legend was told, that man was bold,
and braved the strongest fire then.
the fire was kept, as man's little pet,
and everyone wanted a piece of that.


as years passed, the memories last,
with man and fire hand in hand.
fire gave man warmth, with man burning tough,
and towards eternity they ran.


but however, as they understood each other,
tension grew with many misfits.
man got too close, burnt was his toes,
and fire wavering in the pit.


fell out with each other, they couldnt be together,
and life changed ever since then.
man had no heat, the fire's burning weak,
but no one listened to their rants.


this story is queer, relating to nothing near,
but actually it speaks of things unclear.
friends are here, but nowhere dear,
they bring along much pain and fear.


some are illusory, with much trickery,
a layer of facade over their blackened hearts.
but worry not, the days are short,
and everyone will smile and part.


sorry everybody im in one of my poetic nights again lol. the poem is written for someone. exams starts tomorrow goodbye.
"i deserve the right to chose who i want to confide in so if it's not you that's too bad."

and love fluttered away at
10:38 pm August 13, 2008

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hello! there was class and cca phototaking today! im so upset, today i had a bad hair day! it was so out of shape and oily that i pinned everything up. so sick of it. i wanna perm my hair! grr.


anyway, i missed the cca phototaking cause i was in class doodling. haha not exactly doodling, i was thinking "if my thoughts were a picture, what would it look like?". so there it is. *points to the top* i dont know if you can see it clearly but it is made up of many things. i just thought about my life randomly and just drew whatever that comes to mind. lemme try to list them down: Jay, Amelia, piano, pretty clothes, lingerie, heels, avocadoes, cheese, strawberries, pomegranates, curly hair, coloured contacts, to be skinny, music, studies, friends, family, love, skippy, sleep, computer, make up, eyeliner, nature, travel the world, air stewardess, chef, icecream, milk tea, graduate from university, money, taking pictures, guitar. ahaha. im such a loser man. i realised i dont have a main passion in life, everything is just about important as everything else. oh dear. i need to find a passion to keep to motivated and going. D:


If my studies was a shape, it would be a great big sphere with a dent and many holes.
i think im actually okay in most subjects, but my chinese and ss is a goner. thus the dent lol. and the many holes are because it's not solid, there's many missing parts. like how i dont understand many stuff but i still manage to do relatively well overall.


If my family was a shape, it would be a a big piece of plank.
though my family may be big, inclusive of all the steps relations, none of them know me in depth. and though the plank may be big and powerful, it breaks easily with just a mighty blow. like how my family can shatter with just another heated argument or disagreement amongst each other.


If my friends was a shape, they would each be a magnetised spiky ball.
they are easy to play with and brings me lots of joy. but being spiky, holding it too tightly it would hurt me, holding it too loosely it would roll off. and magnetised is because it's difficult to hold all of them together, seeing that some would repel each other and it's hard to please everyone.


If my love was a shape, it would be a big piece of old woolly quilt.
Warm, comfortable, protective, secure, close to heart. it hasn't been properly used in the past, waiting to be used now. but im already losing faith that my quilt can't keep warm anymore and im abandoning it slowly. D:


If my life was a shape, it would be a colourful star-shaped sponge that turns black when wet.
life gets interesting at times, when i feel light and carefree. there are many aspects of my life, thus the star shape. but if i continue to think too much, i add on to my burden, like a wet sponge being too heavy and dragging itself down. and then i'll get emotional and so sick of life.


if your life was a shape, what would it be? :D


thanks what am i doing lol. pardon my randomness. D: oh wells, good luck to dodo for her piano exam and happy 17th birthday xiwen! dont think i dont know but you ignored my message when i asked you if you wanted to come and watch our performance. you women's anatomy. haha.


before i go, two lovely pictures of lovely amelia baby for you. please ignore my two jay posters at the back thanks.


我的宝贝长大啦！


sayonara! ^^

and love fluttered away at
10:38 pm August 12, 2008

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im so upset with diaryland. i dont have a separate link for each post! my archives aint working and i havent gotten a response from the help support. im gonna stage a rebellion and join forces with other diarylanders to move to blogspot or wordpress or xanga. haha no la. i shall figure it out slowly first. D:


oh and yea im procastinating. i havent studied anything yet. im gonna bang my head against the wall now goodbye.


ps: my brother's back and he's fussing that im still using his com. D:

and love fluttered away at
5:23 pm August 11, 2008

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The craziest thing I have done for love is sacrificing my sleep for the entire night just to talk to him in the wee hours of the morning, and then stay awake for hours thinking about what the hell we talked about for so long. oh, i also wrote a cheesy poem that i suddenly got the inspiration from doing my business in the toilet. thanks.


Catch Wall-E in cinemas from 28 August 2008!


(ORIGINATOR BLOG: www.underage-girl.blogspot.com)


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yay! doing this for Jess, hope she wins it! and girl, dont be upset anymore alright! cheer up! <3


wahlau my com is making me so angry. first my msn couldnt work. and then when it finally did, my com hanged and shut down by itself. why like that! now it cant be switched on and it's making funny noises. im gonna smash it grr. im using my brother's laptop now btw. he's not home anyway. haha.


alright. study time. i finished my physics assignment and my math worksheet yesterday. gonna revise some chem today. pity i forgot to bring home my ss book or i could start revising that. ss sucks lol.


everyone please go do the meme thing! but today is the last day already! haha oh wells. toodles!

and love fluttered away at
2:06 pm August 11, 2008

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happy birthday singapore!





me and debbie went to shokudo pasta at citylink. japanese pastas are super delicious! everyone please try their mango kakigori, it's fabulous. and their matcha milk, tasty! :)



debbie had some chicken cutlet with tomato cream pasta and i had the salmon avocado cream pasta. oh try their cheese too, it's friggin smelly but it's heavenly. lol.



the mango kakigori! looks very delicious right! haha. dont be fooled by thinking it's just a mountain of shaved ice with mango toppings. there is mango inside the mountain of ice! and there's chewy delectable jellies sprinkled all over. lol.



after we watch the fireworks, we decided to walk around and jalan jalan. but everybody around us were loveydovey couples or big groups! the two of us lone souls felt so out of place lol. so we decided to sit down along the road opp the civilian war memorial. i look so ghostly there lol.



can someone tell me what are those white circle thingy floating about? it wasn't raining or snowing there. debbie said it was some spirit orbs. thanks.


yep so that was national day. today my parents went out with my brother to watch money not enough 2 and left me at home. haha. no la. i decided to stay at home and be diligent. i shall study! oh i havent had lunch. D:



winnie darling! <3


wish me luck! tata!

and love fluttered away at
3:04 pm August 10, 2008

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today is a day before the beijing olympics and two days before national day. and i havent studied. AIYA! i really need to slap myself man. and my mother, she cant stop nagging and scolding me okay. when i ask her why she wont scold my brother, she said "you shut up ah, your brother is different." IN WHAT WAY DIFFERENT YOU TELL ME? HE NO NEED TO STUDY AND CAN PLAY COMPUTER ANYTIME HE LIKES LA? biased shit grr. sons are always the favoured one in my family, or rather, in the entire relatives tree. aiya i dont want to say anymore.


btw i need to say this, i hate it when people start conversations by saying "what are you doing now?" or "you busy arh?". i think it's damn irritating. if you want to talk to me, please think of a topic to talk about. im very friendly actually but by asking that kinda questions, what do you actually want me to reply? "oh, surfing the net/doing homework/listening to music." huh? then they will reply "orh, then i dont disturb you." THEN DONT DISTURB ME IN THE FIRST PLACE! sheesh.


haha let me pour out all my grievances before starting on the topic of the day. digression: ANYONE WANTS TO WATCH MY CO PERFORMANCE? we need to sell at least four tickets each and i havent sold any! the concert is on the 30th of this month, 7.30pm at Singapore Conference Hall. Please support me and buy tickets! I love you very very much! <33


Okay, now let me start. I was blogshopping today(yes i wasnt studying again *bangs head*) and i was linked to DAISYFAYE from Jessica's blog. and they're selling vintage cameras! Fisheyes, Lomos, Polaroids, Holgas... I love all of them! Im so adding vintage cameras into my shopping/wish list.(disclaimer: Pardon me but I ripped all the pictures from the website! Please take a look and support them as well! :D)











i need to start saving money. these cameras range from at least $50 to around $150. the more i look at the pictures, the more i want it! GRAHH.










I think the pictures from these kinda cameras look very cute. Very retro and old school. but the films for these dont come cheap. it is not sold outside anymore so i can only get them online. and for a 10pcs pack is $28. sians. but then again, what can i do with a camera like that. i wouldnt bear to use it either lol. how sia! but it's so pretty! D:


sians. anyway, i logged into my nuffnang account and saw this:

thanks everybody. 20cents is what im gonna have lol. I read tammytay's blog and she just received $500+ from nuffnang. why laoniang only like that lol! OEI EVERYBODY! CLICK ON THE VISITSINGAPORE AD ON THE LEFT! GOGOGO! ahaha. i need at least $50 to redeem it leh. im still far far away lol.


me, debbie and dodo had a little talk about what we are going to do in the future. well, more or less, ive got a goal to work towards to i think. debbie says she wants to work in the media, be a journalist and study in UK. dodo wants to study law in hongkong or japan. i want to study in japan too and i listed down a few professions im interested in:


1)banker (lotsa MOOLAH. $_$)
2)marine biologist/zookeeper/veterinarian (i love animals. :D)
3)pet shop/hotel/cafe/school/spa owner (i love pets. :D)
4)make up artist/hairstylist (for interest only i guess)
5)chef/baker/ice cream seller(like island creamerie that kind, not those sad pushcarts)
6)air stewardess (for experience)
7)model (part time maybe? i love taking pictures. :D)
8)fashion magazine editor (eg. CLEO, seventeen, herworld)


ahaha. so i was thinking, after my two years of college, i'll go try for sia. if i get selected then i'll be an air stewardess till the contract ends(2 or 3 years?). then i'll go study overseas and pursue one of my amibitions. and maybe when i get more settled, i'll open a bakery or pet shop or something on the side. and if i dont get selected, im gonna stay in singapore forever and be bitter for the rest of my life. haha no la. then i think i'll either study in one of the local uni or go overseas. but i'll be staying in singapore for good after all my studies as i dont wanna leave this place. but then again, if i meet a hot guy overseas, goodbye my friends. lol.


oh well. no point thinking so far ahead. i need to worry for my common tests now. haha. there's national day celebration tomorrow and we're gonna go for a sumptious boontongkee chicken rice feast after that. ahaha. then i'll go home and study. saturday would be national day so im hoping i'll get to see some fireworks with all my friends. :D ooh, can't wait to see pretty pretty fireworks.


alright i'll go off and sleep early tonight. but everyone please listen to this song! it's "4th of july" by this person called Joanna. It's a beautiful song. Goodbye my loves!


4th of July - Joanna
Every little kiss I tend to hold
Precious in my heart you've turned to gold
Love's not the word to explain
Just how I feel
It seemed like a dream but I'm wide-awake
And like the earth inside it made me shake
Like a summer fairytale, but it was real
You set off a brand new kind of spark inside of me
And I wouldn't leave your lips even to breathe


Chorus:
The first time I saw you, you were lighting up the sky
Like bright flashing fireworks on the 4th of July
I won't forget and I don't regret
Losing my myself deep inside of your eyes
That night I'll remember for the rest of my life


I cherish all the moments that we spent
I only wish it never had to end
I can take a journey in my mind to yesterday
I'll use the moon and stars to guide me there
A place so far away but yet so near
Just to hold you one more time, I'd be ok
You set off a brand new kind of spark inside of me
And I wouldn't leave your lips even to breathe


Chorus:
The first time I saw you, you were lighting up the sky
Like bright flashing fireworks on the 4th of July
I won't forget and I don't regret
Losing my myself deep inside of your eyes
That night I'll remember for the rest of my life


I feel I left my world, my life, my breath behind
But I know the sun will shine through
Cause I know that again I'll see you
This can't be goodbye
We'll meet again on the 4th of July


Chorus:
The first time I saw you, you were lighting up the sky
Like bright flashing fireworks on the 4th of July
I won't forget and I don't regret
Losing my myself deep inside of your eyes
That night I'll remember for the rest of my life

and love fluttered away at
9:51 pm August 07, 2008

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hello everyone! i've been thinking so much about my life again tonight. i'll talk more about it later. but now, here some pictures of helen the baby fox! it's damn cute i wanna squeeze it! lol. i'll spam all the pictures first okay? :D

















THE FOX FRIGGIN CUTE RIGHT?! i want a baby fox too! look at its face! GRAHH. all animals looks so cute when it's a baby. baby elephants, baby hippos, baby birds, baby dogs, baby deers.... even humans are so cute when they are a baby! like my niece amelia. hoho. she knows how to stand up already! very soon, she will start to walk and then she will start running away from me. lol.


oh yea. the incident about the PE thingy, we went to talk to our DM this morning. they decided to not make us write the letter anymore and just asked us to put in more effort next time. haha luckily man, if not i have to tell my parents what happened and i'll have a jolly good time with them.


we had our physics practical today. die liao la, i dont know how to do it. we had a math quiz too. i also dont know how to do. im so sick of life. time to start studying.


oh and sorry to dodo, debbie and cheehooi for not following you people to study. i dont like studying in groups as it doesnt work for me. and i dont like to travel to woodlands too, it's so far. moreover, my mother is always nagging at me to come home earlier. yea, so sorry ah. in the end, i played badminton with my brother and he thrashed me thanks.


okay enough digression. i was thinking about my future just now, in the long term. ive decided that life's too short for anything. i need to experience things while i still can, while im still young. i've wasted 16 years of my life doing nothing productive or satisfying. yea, so ive been thinking alot about what i should do and here is a few things i listed out:
1) study overseas (most probably japan).
2) live in japan/hongkong for a period of time by myself.
3) be an air stewardess
4) take up a new language
5) go backpacking either alone or with a friend
6) open a bakery
7) do something involving animals (marine biologist/zookeeper)


im so confused. i realised most of the things i want to do is overseas. not that i dont like singapore, but i think singapore is too small for me to do anything. im independent by nature, i want to experience life living along, earning my own keep, taking care of myself in a foreign country. then what about my family? i guess it's just the experience i want so i'll return back home once im sick of everything. lol. home is where the heart belongs right? and about studying overseas, i dont think my father has the money so maybe i should apply for a schlorship. but then again, have you seen my results? it's not that bad, but it's not good enough for a schlorship either. siansation. and about the air stewardess thing, i love travelling and taking planes. i always admire how those pretty air stewardess lugging their suitcase along, looking so glamorous. haha. im also attracted to customer service, i dont know. i like the idea of serving others. haha.


i want to see the world! the world is so big, i want to see each and every scenery, get immersed in their rich cultures and make some international friends! i want to travel to every country, experience how they lead their lives, try their local delicacies and just have fun! lol im so sick of life i dunno what to do. and i get very attracted to japan's culture. it's unusual and uniquely different from the rest. haha. and i want work with animals! it was my dream since young to be a veterinarian. but im not so sure now, im scared of performing surgery on the little pets! zen me ban?!


how! i dunno how to plan out my life! i mean, i dont want to plan every single thing also, i'll take a step one at a time. but after my 6 years in RV, i'll be 18. should i go apply for SIA or go overseas to study or what? if i go university, i think i only can take buisiness and finance cause that's what im stronger at. i want to open a bakery too! and sell my own cakes and pastries. lol. how how! there's so many things i want to do! D:


well, i guess i'll just finish my two more years first then decide. as i grow older, i think i'll be more certain about what i want, not like the indecisive me now. lol. now i just need to study hard and score as high as i can just in case im applying for my schlorship. siansation la.


i wanted to study today but i get too carried away by my thoughts. lol. never mind, I SHALL STUDY TOMORROW! got to go, bye! <3

and love fluttered away at
10:17 pm August 06, 2008

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how everybody? im so disturbed over a few things at the moment. i realised these few days past really fast, so fast it's already august. i haven't even done anything substantial since the beginning of this year! i've just been living each day as it is, going on with what life gives me. and then it suddenly dawned upon me that common tests are coming soon! i havent studied anything and there's math test tomorrow! and here i am still on the computer at such an unearthly hour. -.- not only there's maths test tomorrow, there's physics practical! hosay liao i tell you. i feel the pressure(no pun intended)! GRAHH. the thing i hate about me is that i keep procastinating. i know and i want to do something about it, start revising like mad but i just never went about doing it. why am i like that?! *slaps self* and these few days, im getting so intolerant with school. i always few so tired waking up so early to go to school. i get very distracted during lessons and i dont do my homework. im lagging behind lessons and seeing all my friends around me studying so hard makes me even more stressed. even winnie got a same mark as me in the previous math test; she used to be very weak in math. not that im hating her for that, i love you dearly winnie and congratulations. ;D but it's suppose to be a wake up call for me, telling me it's time to start running and not resting at the side watching everybody running past me. hais.


speaking of running, remember i said im supposed to write a letter for PE? well that was because that fateful PE lessons me and friends didnt run finish our 4 rounds and the teacher reprimanded us. not that we didnt finish our 4 rounds, we jogged and walked finish it. and then the teacher said we are not putting in enough effort and we need to change our attitude. and he made us write a letter to say that we will be more committed to PE in future and the letter has to be signed by our parents and put in the "confidential" file which is like our portfolio. and the following day, we didnt have the letter ready yet so he said we couldnt join the class for PE and had to sit at the side. and he said we can choose not to write the letter but then we would have to meet the principal and talk to her. wahliew, at first i just wanted to write the letter and get over and done with, not inviting more trouble. but the more i think about it, the more i feel that the teacher is really unreasonable, kicking up a big fuss over nothing. at most, he can just scold us and remind us to run next time. write what letter you tell me. im gonna go tell my mother my teacher made me write a letter because i didnt run my rounds. do you think she would be amused huh. my parents have too many things on their mind to care about minor things like that. why must the teachers make life difficult for us? do they feel very superior and powerful to have control over us, seeing us in such plight? sadist okay, all of them. i can't stand school anymore man. grr.


which reminds me, as me and debbie were waiting for the bus at the bus stop outside school today, this group of volleyball sec 3 girls were looking at us like they never seen anything before. and they were giggling and laughing to themselves, whispering and pointing at us. YES WHAT DO YOU WANT? SEE WHAT SEE LA! HOW HAVE I OFFENDED YOU HUH?! and then one of them(PW) whipped out her handphone and started to take pictures of us. WHAT LAH?! JUST WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM US?! i really wanted to go snatch her handphone and throw it on the floor but it didnt occur to me then. stupid sec 3s. why must they harass me and incur my wrath like that. im gonna bomb all of them one day okay. GRR.


on a lighter note, im also very distressed over this boy at the bus stop. every morning i wait for my bus i'll see him. he's damn cute la! i want to go talk to him and make friends with him but so bhb lol. and because he takes different buses as me, i always secretly hope that his buses doesnt come forever lol. im think im such a pervert man. hais.


okay im gonna make some resolutions. dear friends please remind me of them!
1) study hard for common tests
2) stop spending too much money
3) stop eating so much
4) sleep earlier
5) reach home earlier
6) do homework (at home)
7) be more attentive in class
8) stop thinking of going out to have fun
9) stop making plans to go out and have fun
10)be happier


Yes. im all ready to face a new world tomorrow. maths test and physics practical here i come! but before i go, a beautiful picture of me for you:





adieus!



smile more boy. :D

and love fluttered away at
10:28 pm August 05, 2008

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hello everyone! i realised i don't know anyone who likes the same kind of movie/drama i like. I like watching those sad soppy movies/drama usually involving dogs or cute animals. and the ending must include someone dying. haha. i like to watch these kind of shows and cry like a nehneh. i think im a sadist lol. so here i am to list down ten of my favourite movies/drama, in no particular order. do watch them too! :D


1. 10 Promises To My Dog

This is the most recent soppy movie i watched. Socks(the dog) is so cute! It makes alot of funny faces and it has magical healing powers! it died in the ending though. D: but i think this movie is nice because of the dog, the storyline is not very interesting. haha.


2. Hearty Paws

Wahliew, the little boy looks like weikai right! lol. Another doggy movie. this dog is very faithful to its owner! the owner abandoned it and took a train to another city and the dog ran after it. *heartpain* i think the dog got beaten by some crazy guy too. very sad, this dog suffered alot. in the end, the dog died too i think. D:


3. Quill

Another doggy movie! This movie was the one that sparked my love for soppy movies. i watched this in primary school and i cried alot. it talks about the life story of the dog called Quill. Quill is a guide dog for the blind, so it is very loyal to his owner and protects him from everything. and yea, the dog died too thanks.


After three dogs movie, let's move on to baby foxes. ;D


4. Helen The Baby Fox

The fox is friggin cute! look at its face!!! grahh! haha. i'll post more pictures of it in the next post, i realised i had one whole treasure trove of it. haha! Helen(the fox) the deaf and blind, hence named after Helen Keller. The fox died in the end too! DDD:


I think that's all the animal moves i watched, moving on to love stories.


5. My Girl And I

This korean version is adapted from the japanese version. The girl has leukemia and died in the end. ahaha. A very cute movie, i prefer this to the other one actually. Must watch! <3


6. Crying Out Love, In The Center Of The World

This is the japanese version of "My Girl and I". The storyline is about the same, just that this one is reminscing the past while "My Girl and I" is in the present. I remembered i liked this movie so much that i bought the vcd and lent it to somebody, and that faggot never did returned it back to me thanks.


Moving on to more japanese love stories.


7. Sky Of Love

I watched this on the flight to thailand and cried alot. The guy with white hair is friggin handsome!!! haha. A very cute movie too. MUST WATCH! <333


8. 1 Litre Of Tears

I watched the drama version of this. Very sad! The guy very handsome also. Erika Sawajiri the female lead is very pretty! haha. It's about the girl having some sort of cancer and dying too. thanks. it's based on a true story of a girl who has the muscle degenerating disease.


9. A Song To The Sun (Taiyou No Uta)

I watched both the drama version and the movie version. I think the drama version is much better, with more details and build up of tension and emotions. It's about the girl(Erika for the drama, Yui for the movie) having a kind of skin cancer called XP. They cannot be exposed to uv rays so they become nocturnal. there is actually such disease in the world. a very sad story.


As for the last one, not forgetting my baby jay. <3


10. Secret (不能说的秘密)

Jay is super cute in the movie! He looks so young and bouncy haha! A very good storyline involving pianos. hmm, this story doesnt have the leads dying at the end, except for maybe jay's father who died from a heart attack. but who cares haha. please support jay and watch this beautiful movie! <3333


Haha, so there you go! 10 of my favourites. Please prepare boxes of tissue paper while watching these! haha. I feel like having a movie marathon and i'll watch all these in one day! Then i'll have such puffy eyes from all the crying. lol. Oh, debbie showed me this picture of Jay:





CAN SOMEBODY TELL ME WHERE HIS EYES ARE LOOKING?! that naughty boy, i need to go smack his ass and pinch his nehneh. lol. stupid teeko, always out to throw my face. but i still love me loads! MWAH jay! you can look at mine if you want lol!


alright time to go sleep. Toodles!

and love fluttered away at
10:41 pm August 02, 2008

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hellos! we had a very bad pe lesson this morning. i hate it when teachers abuse their authority and make it looks like students are always in the wrong and they are always right, refusing to listen and think about our explainations. it's damn unfair for us students. we are humans, we have our own feelings and way of thinking, teachers cant just self-assume everything just as it is. im so sick of life. grr. now i have to write a letter to say that im gonna be more committed and participate more actively in pe lessons and let my parents sign and it will be put in the confidential file. why must they blow up little matters like that? i hate it when they make a big fuss of something so minor. they are abusing their power okay. is there no room for negotiation? is a letter what they want huh? if that is it, a letter is what im gonna write for them. are they happy now they made my life so sad? GRAAAH.


came home and realised mama's not around again. papa said she went to look for her at his office. she's up to her weird disappearance again. i just dont understand them. it's so late already and they are not back, something must be wrong. i cant be bothered anymore.


anyway, i tried my custard pudding! it's heavenly okay.



added the caramel syrup. it smells abit like mocha haha. very sweet!



haha the whole thing is 4 servings but i lumped all into one container. this is how much i add haha. it tastes very milky but not overpowering creamy. tasty!!!!! hahaha! wanted mama to try some but she's not at home. hais.


i suddenly remembered there's cca tmr. do i go for guitar club or co? im so sick of co okay, but lucky ms tay said i dont have to stay for syf if i dont want to. so after the performance i will be as free as a bird. lol.


my computer is damn lag this few days. anyone knows why? it reacts very slowly, and i cant open too many windows like before. and it oftens hangs and blacks out. sians. how to i fix it? D:


hungry ghost festival opens tmr if im not wrong. thanks everybody. tmr is 1st of august which means 14 more days to common tests. two more weeks! i need to start my intense revision soon! stressed.


i shall go sleep and and embrace another ugly day tmr. goodnight!


oh before i go, HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEXTER! :D

and love fluttered away at
11:02 pm July 31, 2008

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heyhey! i decided to make the custard pudding i bought from meidi-ya today! the instructions are very simple to follow: boil milk with the pudding mix, let it simmer awhile, pour into mould, put in fridge to set, dissolve syrup and pour onto the pudding to serve. haha! i love making these kind of desserts. :D


but the problem was, i dont know how to make the milk boil. there wasnt any bubbles or anything though. D: i recall my home econs teacher saying milk boils very fast and it will suddenly spill over. so maybe im lucky it didnt boil or i'll really be crying over spilt milk, literally. lol.



this is how it looks like after i pour it in the container. it smells really sweet! haha! actually i wanted to pour it in the little jelly moulds but i couldnt find them. lol. it is now in the fridge. i havent try it yet, but i will tomorrow. haha cant wait.



this is the pudding mix i bought from meidi-ya. i think it's available at fairprice too. $3.30 for a box if i remember correctly. lol. there are many flavours too! but i chose the custard one cause it sounded delicious. haha. you can go try making it and tell me how was it! i want to try making other kinds of dessert next time, i saw a whole lot of them that day. haha.



this is the cartoon maggi mee i bought. cute right! look at the little panda! haha. i cant bear to eat it yet lol. it's around $4 for this packet. damn expensive la! it's MINI one leh. lol. i'll take a picture of the noodles when i finally decide to eat them one day. haha.


i got so inspired by debbie so i decided to start making a video for amelia! i did this in 10min last night lol. i know it's very short but it's cute right! hee. i wanted to include videos of amelia that i took but there weren't in the right format. i need to download a converter first haha. never mind, i'll make a longer one another time, anyone recommend me some songs for the video?





i havent done my jianbao! haha. i shall do it now. it's a pity peter has a chalet today if not he can help me with it again hoho. nevermind i can do it! toodles everyone! :D

and love fluttered away at
9:48 pm July 30, 2008

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hello loves! im so sorry for the emo post. everything's okay now! at least i hope. everytime my parents quarrell, they will somehow make peace the next day. but that night, as i went to sleep, i heard my mother's voice from their room. they were quarrelling again but i was the only one awake at 2am to hear that. but now, things are much better. however, there's this undescribable fear in my heart that the next quarrel will be the last one, once and for all. hais.


never mind, i shan't think too much. please remind me not to post such emo posts so frequently, i don't like writing about it either. haha. im gonna post many many pictures today! :D


the neoprints above is taken last friday at shokudo! cute right? haha. i realised i got cock eye in every picture. thanks. btw, please try their tofu cheesecake one day. it's heavenly. *drools*



this is their blueberry cheesecake. i almost rose to heaven eating it. thanks.


there are many other food at shokudo too! it's like a japanese marche, the mentaiko pasta and the skewers are damn delicious. and most importantly, the guy at the pasta counter looks like takashi kaneshiro! dodo's sweetheart lol. shokudo is at the basement of raffles city if any of you are interested. :D


okay now let me post a few pictures of me and dodo's camwhoring session last week in class.






pictures are not very clear cos i used my lousy handphone. lol. we look so retarded haha.


now for the sentosa trip on saturday! i love going to sentosa, i think it's the prettiest place in singapore! good place to paktoh thanks.



thanks. me and debbie secretly drank a can of beer at the event. dont tell my mother ah.



we went to watch the 4D movie! the one about the pirates haha. $16 per person leh. it's quite nice actually, there's wind effect, individual surround sound system, some creepy crawlie thingy at the leg area, and also not forgetting, the sprinklers of water! haha! but honestly, i feel the hongkong disneyland one was much better. they even have smells! haha. next time i shall try the cineblast at sentosa, the one where the chair will move and simulate the log ride adventure. haha. oh ya! that saturday we went, suay suay alot of indian tourists also. one whole flock of them were queueing with us for the 4D show thanks. haha.



dangyuk. one of the drink is malibu dream and the other white chocolate dream from coffee bean. wah sibei tasty i tell you. the malibu dream is a concoction of strawberries and bananas. and the whipped cream is super yummy. haha. fattening thing. btw, i dont have much photos of me and debbie together cos nobody was there to take pictures of the both of us. and our camwhore pics, our heads were too big that they blocked the beautiful background. thanks.



this is me and my great idea. i look retarded. thanks.



the bridge to merlion walk is very pretty! haha. and yes i know my dress is a little short. i look like io wasnt wearing shorts but i was okay! my legs look so fat im so disheartened. thanks.



debbie asked me to touch the flower thanks. this thingy reminds me of disneyland! and the bells played some disneyland-like music too. haha. very cute.



we couldnt resist the urge to soak our feets in the refreshing water. haha. there were many little children splashing about in the water. a pity i didnt have a childhood like that, doing silly things like this, so yea here i am. thanks. i wanna be a kid again! so carefree haha. oh there was this little girl carrying her little rainbow chameleon soft toy as she frolick in the water. then she let the toy flow down the river and she scampered after it. very cute! but the toy looked abit drenched and sad. haha.



we went to the merlion tower. this is taken at the mouth gallery. you know when you go in they will give you a coin called a sand dollar? then you're suppose to put it in this little merlion's mouth in the tower and take a card. and go to the souvenir shop to redeem the mystery gift. i got a fan and debbie got a stupid badge haha! just too sad lol.



after that, we went to clarke quay and ate at manhattan fish market! we shared a seafood platter! all the couples sitting around us also ordered the platter to share. haha. and there was the "flaming prawns". it was literally flaming, the waiter used the torch and flamed the prawns until the sauce on it melted and turned golden brown - on the spot. lol. but i couldnt eat the prawns as i was allergic to it. debbie said it was heavenly. but the dory fillet sucked. damn awful lol. we should have ordered the grilled platter instead haha. and they have this garlic sauce which was damn tasty. debbie and i ate alot of it haha. but then, we didnt get the mints when we called for the bill. sians. haha.



this pretty cheena flower display was outside the tung lok restaurant. dont ask me why i had that face on, i dont know either. lol.



after dinner, we walked to liang court and passed by this restaurant. ahaha. my father's restaurant. no la, just happen i have the same surname as that lol. then we went to meidi-ya supermarket and it was so fun! i love walking at supermarkets. <3 they sell all the japanese imported goods there. there was this cute japanese guy at the games booth! everybody go see! haha. i bought a box of delaware grapes and they were heavenly. and we saw this musk melon going for $79 each thanks. and they had this bag of rice at $70+. and 3 apples of $10 i think. haha. everything was so overpriced. i bought a packet of instant noodles which had cartoon faces in the soup! i'll take a picture of it when i eat it. and i bought a custard pudding mix, im gonna try it one day haha.


yeps, so that's about all the pics i have for now. i just suddenly remembered i have jianbao to do. siansation man. but before i go, did you know anyone can edit the information on wikipedia? and you can create a new wiki on anything. im gonna go do one on myself haha! and debbie did this on the jay chou page:

she thinks she's so funny. im gonna expose her lol. goodbye my loves!

and love fluttered away at
9:46 pm July 28, 2008

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woah it's been four days since ive blogged. my computer was really cranky, it keeps getting disconnected. never mind, i shall write a long long post today, many things happened. hais.


yesterday was jiejie's birthday. happy 26th birthday sis! i wish you many days of happiness ahead. take care of yourself and as well as amelia baby! i love you!


yesterday morning, my dad's shop caught fire. we dont know what caused it, perhaps a short circuit. fire brigade, police, reporters came 6am in the morning. the front of the shop was all charred and black. many things were destroyed, plastic melted. this incident was on the chinese newspaper last night. but luckily, no one was hurt. and luckily, my dad had insurance covered. but now we have to clear things up one by one and stop operations at the shop for awhile i guess.


today, i went to sentosa with debbie because her mother's company had a event there. i went with her last year too. we had quite a lot of fun, went to 4D show thingy and the merlion. after that we went to clarke quay for dinner. i think i'll post the pictures and talk more about it in the next post as ive got something bugging me now. very distracted la.


i realise life is really complicated. why cant we humans just be happy with what we have and lead a happy life with everyone altogether? why must be harbour such negative thoughts on each other, destroying all fragile relationships there is? i am so disturbed.


came back home today, and my parents were quarrelling again. i hate it when they do that. my mother was angry with my dad because he was suppose to tapao dinner for her but he went to send karen back home first instead, leaving my mother hungry and impatient. karen is his other daughter, my stepsis.


it really hurts my heart to hear the words they hurl at each other. my mother keeps scolding and nagging but my father was feigning ignorance. i could feel that my mother felt like she was neglected as my father cared for karen more than our family. she says very hurtful stuff and threatens to walk out of the family or even to death. it's really scary. my dad on the other hand, kept sighing and i could feel that he had alot to say but he doesnt want to argue with my mother, making things worse. now my mother is being spiteful and refusing to eat the food.


nobody is in the wrong though. my mother feels angry because she's disappointed with my father for lying to her, saying that he d