more of jay goodness for you

hello everyone. debbie made me her official jay new informer as she said she wouldn't use the computer anymore. and then i stumbled across a treasure trove of jay pictures on the website! okay, please lemme spam all of them first.














and my favourite one.

wahoo! sexy right! ahaha. in some of the photos, i wonder what was he thinking. always throwing my face haha. he looks so young and naive in some photos! lol. the blue hair one is for you.


i dreamt jay just now during my nap. it was so beautiful and it felt so real. haha yes, i dreamt that he was my boyfriend and we were on an amazing adventure. jay looked so cute and he's so huggable. lol. debbie dreamt that i kept him in a box (?)


oh, debbie is online now. guess i don't have to relay the jay news to her anymore. haha.
then i guess im unlucky then.
alright time to go sleep. headache today. goodbye!

and love fluttered away at
9:48 pm September 30, 2008

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why do you always have to ____? why must you ____? why can't you ____? why are you always ____? why?


ever felt this way, when all you can do is to ask why questions like that? and the more you ask, the more frustrated you get. it's those alone time you have with yourself, in the bathroom or on the train or bus to somewhere or the little moment before dozing off at night, and you start thinking about things. it's these times that i get so frustrated with life, but at the same time, learn more about myself.


i know i may sound abit crazy, thinking about my life and things, but i usually do this all the time when im alone. i dont talk to myself, i just keep thinking. from one thing, link to the other. yea sometimes i think so much i start crying, like just now on my lonesome bus ride home.


i thought about my exams, my friends, my family, my social life, my dreams, ambitions, mistakes, regrets, hope, fear...and i suddenly realised that many things have changed without me noticing. i never knew my mother dyed her hair frequently to cover her white hair, as my impression was her was always young and youthful. but when i took a closer look at her just now, i realised how much she has changed. her expression lines, wrinkles, eyebags all seemed to appear for once. it made me guilty to realised how long ive never took a good look at my own mother. im always mixing around with my friends and looking a jay, but i always neglect my family. even my father, he's already at a retirement age of 64, but he's still working hard to support our family. he's the sole breadwinner, so he can't retire until one of his children starts working. and it occured to me how much effort and hard work my parents put in to raise us healthily, though we did not have a splendid luxurious childhood, but just well enough. yea. and i started to cry uncontrollably.


and then i started thinking about the life ive walked so far. i figured that primary school like definitely more fulfilling and peaceful. there weren't that much disagreements or backstabbing back then. everything was just a childish "i don't friend you liao." and easily solved by shaking hands and saying sorry. and primary school stuff are so easy, i could easily top the class for math and science, even topping the level. but now? i havent scored full marks for anything recently. and last time i had one best friend and we stuck to each other wherever we went. our mothers were friends and we used to go to each others house often. i feel so safe and contented and happy cause i knew i was her priority and she was mine. we have little squabbles but we always seem to resolve it no matter what. life was so carefree back then. now? quarrelling over minute things, talking bad about people, keeping secrets from others, minding studies or other things over friends, harbouring evil intentions...the list goes on. life is getting too difficult for me to bear. how i wished i could go back to the past, when everything was so stressfress, and where i could be first at something.


not that i hate thinking so much, it actually helps me to be a better person, or so i guess. reflecting on my mistakes, on my life, on myself. making goals for the future and planning how to get there. it gives me direction and control over my life. im sure everyone is struggling the same as me la. not that im being emo or anything. everyone thinks this way too right?


alright im such a big procastinator, lacking self control. my sleeping alarm has rung like one hour twenty minutes ago. i ought to go sleep. goodbye.

and love fluttered away at
9:29 pm September 29, 2008

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phew, im finally done with my cid. oral presentation is tomorrow, and our teacher is mrs lee lee mui. lol. im gonna freak out on the spot okay. aiya whatever la. tomorrow is the last day im gonna touch cid. lol.


anyway, i was at the library yesterday. and the security guard asked me if i was local. he said i looked like a 中国妹 ah bye.



do i look like a 中国妹?! lol. pardon my camwhoring skill.


wahlau some people say i look malay, some say i look cheena, some say i look eurasian. how can i join SIA like that! i need a singapore girl face! lol. aiya then again, my face is too ugly for anything lol.


whoa look at the time. siansation. i dont wanna go school!


anyway debbie, please do not be sad anymore. life is still beautiful, the sky is still blue, the grass is still green and the sun is still shining. jay is still cute and happy and always young. ah bye.

and love fluttered away at
11:58 pm September 28, 2008

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im so pekcek over certain things now, school, exams, homework, cid....SIANS! oh and there's more...but never mind, jay's happy songs never fail to tide me through lol. thus i shall blog on something random today...


10 random facts about myself:
1) i prefer using pencils over pens. especially the wooden and manually sharpened kind. (i took alot from IKEA lol.)
2) i don't use correction fluid/tape, just strike off.
3) i don't like covering my notes with more scribbled notes as i'll get a headache from all the mess. i like my notes clean with minimal scribbles. though i like to doodle on it.
4) i have two alarms set in my handphone, one for waking up (5.15am) and one to remind me to go sleep (10pm), which apparently doesn't work.
5) i totally hate cake-smearing. nuff' said.
6) i love eating the fatty jelly part of a beef steak.
7) i can do a continuous transverse wave with my fingers when my palms are placed facing each other, like a praying position.
8) i cannot stand standing under the hot sun, partly because i don't want to be tanned. i love rainy days.
9) i can 翻白眼 (flip my iris to the top of my sockets).
10) i can push my kness down and feel the cartilage behind it.


okay totally random, please pardon me haha. #7, #9 and #10 sounds abit unglam lol.


anyway, i did a disk cleanup on my computer yesterday, and now it's significantly faster! but still quite slow la, occasionally it freezes for a second or two. but overall it's a bit faster. at least it doesnt give me a blue screen error that often. haha.


i've been blogging so late these few days i feel so lethargic. i think i'll go sleep now. going out to study tmr. bye!

and love fluttered away at
11:48 pm September 26, 2008

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Please do not read this entry if you're not a Jay Chou fan. I won't be entertaining any cynical spiteful remarks so please keep them to yourself if you do. I'm just writing what i feel from the bottom of my heart, so please don't take it seriously, disclaimer have been made.

亲爱的杰伦：

我有好多话要告诉，但不知从哪里开始才好。
你的存在，令我无比的高兴，但也让我非常地伤心。
我很爱你，爱你那非一般的音乐，爱你费了许多血汗的电影，爱你那总是胡闹调皮的性格，爱你那可爱的脸孔。
我爱屋及乌，甚至你那难看的毛帽我也接受了。
你的《蓝色风暴》我也打开胸怀地欣赏了。
每次我看见你的幕后花絮还是什么的，看你怎么到处烦别人，秀出你那帅气的魔术师身份，虽然你不停地打扰别人，但你的一举一动每次都能逗我非常地开心。
你是个很特别/独特/独一无二/与众不同的人。
你是个出色的作曲家，每一首歌都让我听出耳油。
你的杰作总是富有独创性，自己的风格，和其他人的比起来，你的高高在上。
你那数不清的奖杯也是你成功的证明。
你是个发自内心地唱的歌手，每一首歌我都能听出你的真诚和努力。
它是那么的亲切，富有情感，我都听得到了。
你是个厉害的钢琴手，连"神圣"的称呼也太委屈你了。
那双灵活的手，仿佛在钢琴键盘上优美地舞蹈。
你是个杰出的导演，《不能说的秘密》是你最好的作品。
我非常喜欢故事的情节，以及你独特的摄影。
你是一个强力派演员，你演的戏我全部都看过，爱过。
你的演技是天生的，总是那么的自然投入。
你是个很棒的篮球手，虽然《功夫灌篮》是电脑模拟出的，但我还是相信你的篮球打得很好。在我眼中你什么都是好的。
你是个帅气的魔术师，每次都有不同的惊喜来讨好别人欢喜。
你讨好了我非常多地欢喜了。
你也是个摄影师，造型师，时装设计师，乒乓手，孝顺的儿子/孙子，爱心大使。
你是我爱的周杰伦。
你多才多艺，活泼可爱，我怎么能不爱呢？
但就是因为你太好了，我觉得非常难过。
我的世界离你的好远啊。
我是多么的想亲自认识你，不能当妻子/女朋友，当个普通朋友，工作伙伴，或在你的公司打扫的清洁工也不妨。
我只是想在你的世界出现，不用很大的部分，甚至碰巧的见一面打个招呼也行。
但我知道这些是不可能的，有许多人也有我这种碰不到的幻想。
你占了我世界一大部份，但我的存在你都不曾察觉。
在你眼中，我只是你那千百万歌迷中的一位。
我知道你生活中的这么多事，了解你的性格等等。
但我们彼此不认识，我只能站在远远的一旁观看。
难道不能拥有，只能欣赏是一种幸福吗？
我只知道不能拥有，是一件非常沮丧的事。
我对你的欲望，是非笔墨所能形容的。
你明白吗杰伦？我自己也不明白我自己。
我知道我不能对你要求什么，你高高在上，我对你来说只是统计的数字。
但是如果有一天，真的有一天，我能有机会认识你，我就能死的没有遗憾了。
我不知道写着烂东西有什么目的，写得再好你也没机会能看到。
我们的世界就是那么远。
但至少我舒服多了。
无论如此，我要谢谢你的存在。
你带给我难以形容的快乐。
我还是爱你的杰伦。永远都是。
请你保重好自己的身体，继续过开开兴兴的生活。
继续唱歌作词，拍照演戏，努力把最好的呈献给大家。
这是我对你唯一的期待。
如果天允许，我希望你会知道和记住，新加坡有个女生叫策玉会永远爱你，支持你的。
我爱你，杰伦。

策玉
26/09/2008

and love fluttered away at
10:50 pm September 25, 2008

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OMG EVERYONE. IM SO HAPPY!
I FINALLY PREORDER THE NEW JAY ALBUM! WOOHOO!



the preorder slip with the receipt.



my handsome baby for you.



the rubik's cube! damn cute right haha.



the other side.


it's so cool okay. debbie got the metal box version which is $29.95 and me and dodo got the normal one which is $21.95 from HMV. i can't wait to go collect it! :D but im so sad now, i scrambled the cube, i managed to put it back, but the faces are facing the wrong way. DDD:


anyway, me and my brother decided to go to the same university together. for the next two years, im gonna finish my JC and he's gonna finish his poly. and the next three years, he's gonna go NS and im gonna go sign contract with SIA(provided if i can). and then we'll come back and go university together haha. he says he wants to take business too (?) aiya dunno whether will work out a not. last time we say we wanted to go the same JC, but in the end, i had IP and he went poly thanks. lol. oh well.


im feeling so emo now because of something but i'll talk about that another time. and look at the time now. hais. bye bye.


我真的好爱你啊。

and love fluttered away at
12:15 am September 25, 2008

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The above message is brought to you by amelia. she's sitting on my lap now and i had to pry her little hands from the keyboard. and i think she shitted cos i smell it thanks. and she was crawling happily on the floor just now at such a turbo speed and then she fell flat on her face. she stunned for awhile and then she started crying and screaming and her eyebrows went red and fury again. ahaha. she's so sick of life.


i need to do so many things today. maths, chinese, physics, cid... sians! can't wait for exams to be over then i can rest forever. lol.


and yes im still listening to the jay song. it's beautiful i tell you. jay sounds so sincered. those anti-jay bastards can go die la, you're missing out alot i tell you. stop saying he's ugly unoriginal flirt. whatever. -rolls eyes. anyway the preorder for the new album starts tomorrow! im gonna go preorder it after school woohoo!



anyway this was quite long ago, i forgot to post it up. innit is something like a forum where you can post things to attract traffic to your blog. and these are the list of the top few. can you tell me why are all the topics like that? wahlao these people purposely post threads like that to attract traffic. -.-


alright i shall go do my stuff now. but before i go, here's the lyrics to jay's new song. sing along! :D


　《稻 香》 词：周杰伦 曲：周杰伦

　　对这个世界如果你有太多的抱怨

　　跌倒了就不敢继续往前走

　　为什么人要这么的脆弱 堕落

　　请你打开电视看看

　　多少人为生命在努力勇敢的走下去

　　我们是不是该知足

　　珍惜一切 就算没有拥有

　　还记得你说家是唯一的城堡 随着稻香河流继续奔跑

　　微微笑 小时候的梦我知道

　　不要哭让萤火虫带着你逃跑 乡间的歌谣永远的依靠

　　回家吧 回到最初的美好

　　不要这么容易就想放弃 就像我说的

　　追不到的梦想 换个梦不就得了

　　为自己的人生鲜艳上色 先把爱涂上喜欢的颜色

　　笑一个吧 功成名就不是目的

　　让自己快乐快乐这才叫做意义

　　童年的纸飞机 现在终于飞回我手里

　　所谓的那快乐 赤脚在田里追蜻蜓追到累了

　　偷摘水果被蜜蜂给叮到怕了 谁在偷笑呢

　　我靠着稻草人吹着风唱着歌睡着了

　　哦 哦 午后吉它在虫鸣中更清脆

　　哦 哦 阳光洒在路上就不怕心碎

　　珍惜一切 就算没有拥有

and love fluttered away at
5:35 pm September 23, 2008

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eh i just received this sms from my sister. please spread it around okay!


"Please help to sms the rest. FYI Hi friends, the following items have been recalled due to china's milk situation. This is real. M&M's, snickers, mento's yoghurt bottle, dove choc, oreo wafer sticks, monmilk, dutchlady sterilised milk, wall's all natural mango, mini poppers ice cream, magnum ice cream, moo sandwich ice cream, mini cornetto and youcan icecream. We've been asked by AVA to remove them from our stores."


well, i don't know if it's really true... but just stay away from all these la, in case really got poison then song song liao. wah sian leh, i love eating all these. D: tell all your friends and family and everyone you know hor!


and yes im still listening to the jay song ah bye.

and love fluttered away at
11:01 pm September 22, 2008

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hello everyone! im in love! jay has a new album and i so wanna go preorder it! his debut song was released today on the radio and it's so cute! it's called "fragrant rice" and it's on repeat ever since i got the song. im gonna listen until i die okay haha. and his theme for this album is joker/magician. wah cool sia!



this is Jay the magician.



this is Jay the Joker. (no, not literally.)



Jay the magician.



Jay the Joker.


Joker + Magician = ?



woh. ci gei ni ah.


i think the theme is damn cool leh! he looks so dark and mysterious and sexy i wanna squeeze him. don't you! wait till you hear th fragrant rice song, you'll fall in love with him okay. he makes me so happy i forgot to do my math.



he looks so sick of life haha.



wahlau cute leh! the preorder comes with a limited editon rubik cube sia, i want! there's his face on every square! but i scared singapore one's don't have the cube and we'll get some lousy calender. lol. i want a piece of jay!


yea. all these photos is debbie sent me one. she's my mighty jay news informant okay! lol. usually im too lazy to read his news so i'll just hear it from debbie. but i occasionally search for his pictures haha. and please go listen to his new songs! i dont know how to upload it but im sure someone uploaded radio rips of it. haha.


anyway, please do the poll at the right! and please don't spoil the poll! don't anyhow choose la! someone chose "teacher" and that he/she "is here to check on me". it's mr tan or mr ong i tell you lol. haha whatever la, but don't spoil the poll already. and so many people chose "no" for the last question im so sad. haha.


i feel so rejuvenated by jay, im filled with so much jay goodness. he's making me feel so warm and fuzzy ah bye. lol.


杰伦，我闻到稻香的味道了！我知足了！我听到蟋蟀丛林鸟叫的声音了！我会努力过生活，珍惜一切了！我爱你！

and love fluttered away at
10:19 pm September 22, 2008

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Hi, this is the second post of the day. i just added a nuffnang poll at the side, please do it! haha, was just being random, pardon. only 5 questions! :)


geez, i just suddenly remembered my maths revision exercises are not done yet. goodbye.

and love fluttered away at
9:19 pm September 21, 2008

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my grandma and my cousin went back to malaysia this morning. i didn't bid them goodbye as i was still sleeping! i think they left at around 11am? im sorry! my grandma even left me a $50 and i didn't even thank her for it. i'll call her later to tell her. D:


my brother has this sudden interest to learn piano, so i was teaching him some simple tunes. he wants to play like jay chou (?) haha, wait long long la.



my baby girl! i bought the yellow dress she's wearing from thailand! haha cute right? she's so naughty now. anyway people, please stay tune to the baby contest show on channel 8. my sister said leeguohuang came and talked to her. lol. oh, amelia and clare(baby cousin) were babytalking to each other yesterday. damn cute. and they were like smiling and laughing and babbling their baby language. lol.



amelia became fat right? ahaha. my fattybombom. (?)oh my grandma is in the background watching teevee.



dont ask me why is this so blur. i thought i looked so pretty in this picture, with my pretty fish braided pigtails(i know you cant see it but who cares) but then it looked like my arm was chopped off from my shoulder. freaky.
it hurts.
alright time to study. no, pizza time first. goodbye.

and love fluttered away at
6:40 pm September 21, 2008

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hello! my grandmother reached at 3pm today. my cousin is here too! haha. now there's like 7 people staying at my house, so bustling with life haha. we just went for some dinner. oh i studied today! im gonna work hard this last term okay. IM GONNA WORK HARD! :D and yes im appearing offline haha.


okay ive got nothing to blog about, no pictures to post, so im gonna do another emo post, please pardon me. dodo suddenly told me out of the blue last night: "i miss you." three simple words, yet it made me stunned there for a moment. i know things havent been going right for us, and that exam stress is pounding it in even more... but don't worry dude! after exams we'll continue with all our plans okay? :D please don't give up on me, cos im not giving up on you.


and this morning, she told me out of the blue again: "actually what debbie said is right, after this, we won't be friends anymore." dodo, i may seem to be nonchalant about it but actually, IT HURT ME REAL BAD TO HEAR YOU SAY THAT. the moment after that, i felt my heart turning sour. you know how much i treasure friendship, getting very upset and angry when there's quarrels and cold wars. you know how i often close one eye into things, avoiding all quarrels as much as possible. you know how little friends i already have, and that im not prepared to lose anyone of them. well, maybe it's because you have a wider social circle than i have, from your SC, interact, tuition and cca. i've always admired how you seem to be able to relate to all of them, telling them everything about what happened in your life. maybe it's that im just envious because i dont have much friends to talk to and that's why i keep many things to myself. and you know i think alot and feel alot, sometimes it gets so crazy and out of control. although i cannot deny that mere sentence has some truth to it, as the future is untold; we won't know what will happen in the future. but i just know that it hurt me real bad to hear one of my closest friend say that personally to me. it's like "hey, you're just my friend for now. next year byebye and thankyou for yout time." seriously got me dumbfounded. hais. im at a lost as you are dude. i think it's the exam stress that's getting into us. please don't take what i said to heart, i still want to be your friend and continuing doing fun things we used to do. i still love you!


okay actually i've got many many more to say, but i dont wanna type it all out here. it's always like that, when i set out what to type, i usually have alot of thoughts floating in my mind. but as i type, i get lazy or i forget some of the points and then it becomes like that. everything i type is not even half of what i wanted to say. hais.


on a lighter note, it's an hour away to dear Jessica's 16th birthday! HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABE! can't wait to see you soon. :)


alright i better go off now, there's a family gathering tomorrow! and yes im feeling fine. bye!


也许时间是一种解药

and love fluttered away at
10:28 pm September 19, 2008

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didnt went online yesterday as i was studying for the english and physics test today. the english was quite okay i guess, i hope i can get at least an A2 or something. the physics test...forget it man. i dont know how to do alot of questions but lucky this test is not graded. or so far they say. in the middle of the test, i saw cheehooi sleeping and giving up on the paper. i saw binsing's troubled face as he didn't know how to do everything. everybody's so sick of life lol.


but anyway, i've got mail! i love getting mail. :D



the white envelop is from fr3b. everything please click HERE! join it! it's like a online sampling portal where you can test new products for free! you just have to pay for the postage of the items which is only a few cents. and you earn more points by writing reviews of the product you sampled in order to sample more products! just go their website and join me! :D so i opened the two envelops...



top row is the three products i chose to sample: lioele bb cream, covermark foundation and neutrogena fine fairness peel mask. haha can't wait to try them! in fact, if you review their items on your blog, you can stand a chance to win freebies like a set of acrylic nail art or smth! i'll post reviews here once i've tried them.


and the brushes at the bottom are my Coastal Scents brushes that i've waited for so long! it has finally arrive! wahoo! the spreer is damn efficient la, updating us on the status and sending out the items quickly. :D i can't wait to try the brushes too! i hope they really live up to their recognition, everybody's talking about them. haha.


i was suppose to be doing my indices worksheet and reading my chinese ah ma book now but im feeling so lazy. haha i'll stay up later to do it la, since i slept in the afternoon. lol.


there are some things that are bugging me for very long, but i dunno how to start talking about them. i think too much, and sometimes it gets so bad i feel like crying. haha. i guess it's the exam stress bah. hais.


on a lighter note, my grandma from malaysia is coming over! she's staying at our house and we'll be having a family gathering on saturday! can't wait to see her. i rarely see her as she stays in malaysia and i love her alot cos she's my only grandparent. the rest all died thanks.


alright i shall go now. tata!


就是开不了口让你知道

and love fluttered away at
9:45 pm September 18, 2008

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yo people!i've made a resolution - to sleep by 10pm every night!haha, i think im lacking sleep. my dark circles are scary. lol.thus, i shall go off by 10pm every night? but i don't think it's possible leh. i'll always end up dragging till midnight so something. D:


im running out of topics to blog about already, and im sure nobody wants to read my whinyarse emo posts. haha. damn, i ought to be studying now but never mind. i shall post about something interesting today.


remember my "10 favourite movies" post? today im gonna do "5 favourite books" post! i wanted to do 10 too, but i realised im not really a reader! i havent been reading much books! and im very selective about reading haha. as most of my friends would know, i don't read books that come in many series from the same author (eg. jodi picoult, lesley pearse...). i only read books are the only one their authors wrote. in other words, one book. one author. no series or anything. lol. well, i guess publishing only a solitary book means the author is putting alot of effort in it and perhaps, wants to convey a message or something. not just to earn money cos one of your books get big and you continue writing more to earn more.


and also, i like reading non-fictions. haha. i sound like such a boring person. i like to read how people account on their own life, write autobiography on themselves and their life. writing in the first person view can make the book more personal and it's easy to relate to what the author feels and thinks. sounds more sincered? hmm. lol.


as for fiction, i like books that are not ordinary. not like, okay, this is a book, a book this is. hmm i like books with pictures. :D hard to explain. never mind skip this point.


oh, i like japanese writers too. although most of them write in japanese and then the books get translated, the words still have the poetic feel in the japanese language. they would use very beautiful metaphors mostly referring to "flowers","snow","rivers" or "moon". ahaha, i dont know why but i like reading things like these.


okay, cut the crap. here is my list of 5 favourite books in the order of which one i read first. :D


5 Favourite Books


1)The Curious Incident Of The Dog In The Night-time

i read this a few years ago and i love how special it is! many of you may say it's a boring book, but i think it's very witty and smart. i like the little puzzles and illustrations used. and the book is written in the first person view(like a diary form i think?) and the main character is a autistic(or was it dyslexic?) boy. he talks very weirdly but very engaging at the same time. and he doesnt even number the chapters properly, he numbers them with prime numbers! haha this is what i called a special book, and i like it thanks.


2)The Da Vinci Code

i watched the movie too but i must say the book is better than the movie. I like this book as it is packed with action and keeps me at the edge of my seat. I like how the readers will be engaged with the characters and follow them on an exciting adventure in search of the truth. The plot is very fresh. I like it la. I guess this is most popular and recognised book in my list of 5. haha.


3)Marley and Me

omg, i totally love this book. if you love dogs, you will certainly love this book i tell you. i have a dog too, and as i read the book, i can relate to how the author feels about his dog. i will think "haha yea, skippy does that too." or "OMG YES, dogs just LOVEEE doing that." or something like that. haha. for those with no dogs, it's harder to relate to the author, but i guess the sad ending makes up for the everything. yes the dog died in the end and i couldnt stop crying. lol. speaking of which, where the hell did this book go? -looks around


4)Yakuza Moon

this is a autobiography on this woman who was involved with the japanese mafia. and yea, that's her on the cover. I love how she talks about her childhood at her old house, then how she became involved with the yakuzas, about her boyfriends and of course her sex story. i really pity this woman in some parts of the story, where she was used and abused really badly. and i really admire her courage for not giving up and trying her best to pick herself up and do something for her own life.

she is now a mother and i reckoned that must be her daughter. wah damn cool to have a mother with tattoos like that. but it's abit scary at the same time lol. she's a woman with alot of character and this is a book i definitely recommend. :D


5)Kamikaze Girls

this is a fiction and there is also a comic and movie with the same name. personally, i thought the story was rather interesting and new. but of course you must have some knowledge on what is a "lolita" and a "yanki" first, or you will be lost in the book. haha. it's quite interesting to see how two extremes become best of friends with each other. a good book to kill time.


yeps, that's about all. i know i'm not a good book reviewer; please pardon me. ahaha. okay, i gotta go do my math and physics assignment now. it is said that The One is taking over our physics class because mr suria is out for reservist. Yes, The One. so i better get my assignment done. and 10 is approaching. bye!

and love fluttered away at
8:52 pm September 15, 2008

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hello everybody.
i feel like crying now.
it's past midnight but i'm still up.
for what? i'm not too sure either.
i stayed up to do my cid report, and it's just done.
many things are not going right, and i feel like falling apart.
my bed is beckoning for me now.
now i can only hide under my covers, wishing for a brighter tomorrow.
ah bye.

and love fluttered away at
12:30 am September 15, 2008

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GRAHH. i hate my computer okay. it's friggin friggin slow. AND I FRIGGIN MEAN IT. it takes like more than 10sec to load a page? and it can't multitask like before anymore! last time i could have up till 5 different windows or applications running at the same time but now i dont know what happen. it's making me so frustrated! and sometimes it would give me the blue screen error and shut down by itself! and i can't even restart it or anything, and it keeps making funny noises. WHAT'S WRONG WITH MY COMPUTER! i tried to install the updates or whatever but it ain't working. grr. sometimes i feel like smashing everything. even as im typing this, the words come out very slowly and some letters just get skipped. GRAHHH. can somebody tell me what's wrong with it?! now i can't play my gunbound or dota or o2jam anymore cos i can't run heavy applications. im already having so much difficulty with one window of internet explorer. sucks big time okay. i tried to be patient with it, im going nuts soon. somebody please save me.


now even my computer is growing old. hais.

and love fluttered away at
10:41 pm September 14, 2008

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hello earthlings. today's post will be split into two parts. the happy part and the sad part. thanks. now for the happy part.


reached home early today cos there wasn't cca till next year. so i decided to try my cartoon maggi mee again!

look at the cute little doggies! but i was rather disheartened there were only two doggies. the panda one had around 6 or so! or i starting eating the noodles, careful to leave the doggies for the last...



and then more of its friend floated up to say hi. ahaha! total cuteness okay.



the little doggy is friggin small and cute la lol. couldn't bear to eat it. oh this flavour is nicer than the panda one, i think. haha. this is what i really call "cup noodles", it's really in a cup. damn little haha. aiya it's kids maggi mee mah.


speaking of "cups", i made instant cupcakes too!



got this intant cupcake mix from daiso lol. daiso sells alot of this kinda things if you really notice them. i dont have a conventional oven at home but i really like making things(baking, cooking..) so this thing is damn fun! it requires a microwave oven, which i have. lol. and it's damn easy to make. and oh, this instant cupcake thing has many different flavours and mine is mocha. :D



pour the flour into a microwavable cup.



crack an egg in it.



mix the flour and the egg together. this part is a little tricky as the two things are rather immisicible, so you gotta stir it very hard. and make sure all the flour has dissolved into the egg; you don't want bits of flour in your cupcake! make sure the mixture is smooth without any lumpy things. lol.



pop it into the microwave oven for around 2~3min on medium high. the cake should rise up to the brim. i wanted the cake to overflow a little like the picture on the box but i guess my cup was too big. will try using a smaller cup next time.



tadah! it should look something like that. haha. spongey and soft. and it smells damn nice!



as for the taste, well, it's not bad, edible, a little dry though, but it's sweet and very fragrant. and it's worth all the entertainment it gives me! haha.



haha, the whole thing can just be taken out like that. all the holes look a bit scary actually haha.


yep, so this is what i call cupcake, or rather, cake-in-a-cup. ahaha. very cute. everyone please go try it! :D


and this was my lunch for today. and then i went to take a rejuvenating nap which explains why im still up blogging at this unearthly hour. okay, for the sad part now.


I DON'T WANNA LEAVE 4L! it suddenly dawned upon me we only have less than 2 months together. to be exact, 56 more days till end of school term on 7th november. and excluding weekends and public holidays where we won't be going to school, leaves us only 38 of school days with them. NOOOOO!!! im so gonna miss all of them! they are such a cute bunch of people(did i use this phrase for the percussionists as well?)! i'll miss our pdp lessons with mr suria, taking class photos together, sitting together during recess, mass changing in the toilets together...i'll miss winnie's carefree laughter, ruolan's random ramblings, the guys' nonsense, and most of all, the five of us.


i really don't want to part with you guys, it's only up to this last stage of our sec 4 year that i finally learn to cherish one another. despite the numerous quarrels and hurtful remarks we used to say to each other in the past, i really want the five of us to remain our happy little clique for as long as we can. i don't want to have negative thoughts against any of you anymore, life's too short to be unhappy. and the thought of being streamed into different class next year makes me very sad. all of us will meet new friends, form new cliques, have new besties, and our four years of friendship(2 for jean) will just vanish into nothing just like that. or at least, i guess we would occasionally talk to each other on msn or sms for the first few months, and then slowly it becomes less frequent and finally into nothing at all. and then we'll all drift apart, heading towards different goals in life with a whole new group of people. 我不要！i want us to continue sitting together during literature class, to sit together during assembly and recess, to laugh together about random nonsense or just gossip about others, to cry together and console each other at our results(okay, not a good example), to just do everything together la! im so pek cek now i dont know what to do.


debbie! i'll miss you so much! i'll never forget how we always go out to cityhall/dg for dinner after co on tuesday and friday! and how we'll wear pretty clothes and just go out and bum around, and crazy jay kboxing, and eating good food, and just talking about anything under the sun. jay, clothes, our ambitions, our results, our family, our friends...just anything! and now that we're out of co, there's nothing i can link solely to you except for jay. and maybe photoshoots(which we havent solidfy anything yet (?) but soon!). you're one of those i really won't feel sian-ed to talk to haha. i love you! :D


dodo! i'll miss you too! i have this really bad hunch that i won't be in the same class as you next year. you're so smart and capable in everything! even your pe, you managed to finish running in less than 15min! i know no matter how hard i try i won't be able to do that! i won't forget going amore with you(though im still as fat as ever), going for cid lessons with you and travelling all the way to changi airport for popeyes. though we may have many different ideas and opinions, i still enjoy being your friend as you would always be there to help or listen. i love you! :D


cheehooi! i'll miss you too sia! i love your crazy laughter and funny little jokes. dangyuk. and i'll never forget that day we went to do our hair at FEP! though my hair still looks like that lol. we must go and do treatment again okay! i wanna go perm my hair after eoys and you can go do your hair too! and stop thinking why is your face like that la, you're not ugly! i've always admired why do you have so many friends everywhere and always seem to be going out with alot of different people. nonetheless, i love you! :D


jean! i'll miss you too! i suddenly remembered our one little pathetic outing during cny this year lol. we should go out shopping someday! and you havent seen amelia or skippy yet! lol. and i love shopping online with you, though you rarely come online lol. when i open a spree, you must patronise me hor! haha. and i'll never forget the days we spent in thailand with debbie, 毕生难忘 okay. i love you! :D


wahlau i sound as if im dying and leaving my last words here. aiya, i just don't want the 5 of us and 4L to split up la! im in a moral dilemma now. i want exams to be over asap but that will mean the days with 4L will even be shorter than ever. i want holidays to come but that will also mean 4L have already parted. HOW SIA! im feeling so crazy and emo now i dont know what to do.


well, i say all this also no use. life will just go on, living the present as just a memory in our hearts. we'll all grow up, work, get married, have children, retire and die. but i dont want sia! i want to continue with all of you, go university with all of you, work with all of you, and still hang out often outside with all of you! but maybe when im enjoying my retirement when i grow up, i'll look back upon my teenage years and recall 4L and the five of us. then im gonna dig up all your addresses and write a letter to all of you okay. my mum did that and she reunited with her primary school friend thanks.


and the sad part is, i may be thinking so much now, bearing not to let go and part, but when i really join my new class, then i'll just forget about the sadness already. last time me and stephanie(primary school bestie) were very very close, we talk on the phone everyday, were in the same class four times in 5 years. and then when we went to different secondary schools, we were very sad and we still called each other everyday, asking about how was each other's new life and the new friends we made and blah blah. and then the calls just get lesser and lesser and now we are just reduced to occasional smses to wish happy birthday and rare little chats on msn. but we do make it a point to go out once every holiday and just update each other about what has happened. we still do love each other alot, just that the distance is making as drift apart. she has her own bunch of friends and i have mine too. it's rather sad ain't it?


but all this can't be helped la, quoted from debbie "change is the only constant". another quote from jessica, "people walk in and out in our lives, but what's important is those footprints that they left behind in our hearts." and another quote from dunno who, "absence makes the heart grow fonder", but too much of an absence makes peggy a very sad girl. ah bye everyone.


oh wait, everyone please listen to this beautiful song.
"i'll move on" by olivia ong. it's exactly how im feeling inside now. ah bye.





This road that I'm taking twists and turns
My life my chance turning dreams into reality.
Down this path faced with so many things
Sometimes I feel like giving up and turn away

Can't seem to go on
And I've been thru' this before
Now where am I?
Where do I stand?
A little lost here.
But I'll remember.
All those times you've brought me thru'.
I'd be a fool to give up cos' the goal is near

I'll move on I'll go on.
Lord I will take your hand.
And you will guide me along.
Survive thru' this storm.
So I say, come what may.
I'll hold on to my hope.
Yes, I will walk down this road.
And my passion drive will lead me on

Here I am Once again caught in the rain.
Looking back I've come so far And I want to carry on
Take a step at time It's alright.
Even thru' this rain, I want to smile again

Don't hold back now.
And i've been thru' this before.
Now where am I?
Where do I stand?
A little lost here.
But I'll remember.
All those times you've brought me thru'.
I can feel the sun shining down on me

Here I am, Here I am.
Lord I will take your hand.
And you will guide me along.
Survive thru' this storm.
So I say, come what may.
I'll hold on to my hope.
Yes, I will walk down this road.
And my passion drive will lead me on.



i don't want jay to grow up too. he'll be 30 and a lao ah pek already. sigh.

and love fluttered away at
11:07 pm September 12, 2008

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wah song song ah i tell all of you. we got back chinese and literature paper today. i've got 33/55 for chinese which is a B4. well, i improved from the last time, but all my other subjects deproved drastically thanks. my english literature, i got a 33/50 and it's a B3. and i cried thanks. i know B3 is not very bad but that's like the lowest grade among everyone. which means im one of the lowest. there's nobody i can blame but myself because i felt asleep while reading the crucible. and i dont wanna go school tmr, we're getting back or ss paper. im gonna prepare lotsa tissue okay. aiya life's too difficult for me to bear.


i calculated my GPA for this term(excluding SS) and it's a 2.9. promotion criteria is 3.0. thanks everybody. and i think with my SS added in, it's gonna fall even lower, assuming i wont get a B3 to at least maintain a 2.9. im so sad and angry with myself okay. i need to give myself a good..erm..lashing. okay what am i even talking about, i need to start studying! what make up, what kbox, what outing la, im gonna coop up at home everyday and study. but i just cant seem to discipline myself to do so. even if i try to resist using the com, i still will in the end. unless you take away my wireless keyboard and hide it or smth. im so sick of life la.


i really dont feel like staying in RV anymore la. i wanna transfer to some JC but apparently i think ms ek has told all the other tertiary institutions to inform her if any IP students appealed for a transfer. what la! cos i figured, i dont want to be retained, and i dont want to continue in RV either, as i dont think i'll be in the same class with any of my friends. dodo will be waaaay out of my league and join those prcs in 4E or 4A and the rest, well im not sure where they will end up too. in fact, i want to go to SHATEC or COSMOPROF leh. i think it's damn interesting and i've always been interested in the customer service sector, meeting new people and all. and since i've got a bigger passion for that compared to my academic subjects, should'nt i pursue what i really want? now it all boils down to whether ms ek is willing to let me go, and whether they want to accept me, and whether my parents will ever hear of it. sigh.


sometimes really wished i was back in the past, when everything was so carefree. where me and stephanie would meet every holidays and go out crazying shopping, where i didnt have to worry about my results, or even worry about whether i'll get to be promoted. and winnie my ex-tablemate talked to me today and hearing her carefree laughter made me feel so nostalgic. i miss sitting with her and laughing at some stupid nonsense together. and now with eoys inching closer and closer, i feel so stressed out and lackadasical(shan't use this word, brings me bad memories about elit.) lethargic about everything. i've no motivation for school anymore, there's nothing i can look forward to and harbour hopes for. i feel so resigned with everything sometimes i wanna smack myself out of all these and just wake up. i have so many ambitions and hopes of the future, but looking at the present situation now, i just want to shut myself down and hibernate forever.


haha yes im emo tonight again, due to the lack of sleep i guess. been sleeping very little these few nights. and im very disappointed i lost a listening ear i treasured so much, dued to some unpleasant things that happened. i've always poured my troubles to this person and found consolement in a way or another. but not anymore. i dont think you know you're the one, but all i can say is, it's a great pity to lose you. well, life goes on. and no, it's not that person who most of you may think it is. aiya im trying to be so vague here and hide everything i just as might well delete this whole chunk. there.


okay i gotta go sleep now. ahbye.



on a lighter note, jay never fails to make me very happy. I LOVE YOU JAY! <3

and love fluttered away at
10:44 pm September 09, 2008

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very light make up here! and yea, i was lazy to draw my brows. lol.


hello lovelies! yesterday dr lim was supposed to treat us to swensens but he had something urgent to attend and pangseh-ed us! haha, but he promised to treat us another day, which is fine by us. since it's not surprising he's always pangsehing us at the last minute. lol. and no, im not gonna be your first wife. -.-


today marks a day i should be relieved. i shan't say what it is but im glad it became this way. anyway peter that silly boy decided that he shouldn't jio ****** anymore. he told me he has a new target called Angel. an Angel indeed. jiayou boy and good luck!


school has reopened, and looking back at what i've done for the one week september holidays, i must say i haven't done anything much. i remembered posting a list on what i wanted to do during the holidays somewhere in august so im gonna review it again.


1) start on my great make up endeavour
2) shopping! bought a river island corset. :D
3) finally get down and start on my shoots
4) lose weight!
5) kboxing!
6) iceskating!
7) bowling?
8) eat at fancy restaurant! ate at waraku and saw elvin ng. he's damn hot! :D
9) perm my hair!
10)practise my piano more often
11)earn more money!


okay, not much achievements actually, and all those i struck out required money!(except for practising piano) which greatly contradicts my #11! siansation. I NEED TO STOP SPENDING MONEY.


and since school has started, the stress is getting back to me again. I FEEL THE NEED TO REVISE FOR EOYS! i must work harder la, no such nonsense for shitty results this time. i really hope i can do better! im gonna work hard okay, people remind me!


stephanie msged me that day and i suddenly realised i miss her SO SO MUCH. she's having her O levels and rarely come online now. I MISS YOU MANY MANY DEAR! we shall go and have fun once your o levels and my eoy ends ya? love you!


oh, i've got another thing i wanted to do for very long. it's been bugging me at the back of my mind for quite some time. i shan't say what it is, once im done with it i'll show you all. some of you might know already. ahaha. yes im always trying to scurry off to complete it but i'll take some time. hoho.


okay jessica is back from her trip and her avril concert. she's so hyper about it haha! you lucky girl, but we'll study hard too ya? i missed you too!


anyway, amelia my little baby went for the baby contest yesterday and didnt win anything thanks. she was feeling grouchy and tired so didnt smile much. poor thing. but i think she got into the top 50 or so. NEVER MIND DARLING,YOU WILL ALWAYS BE THE PRETTIEST AND CUTEST BABY IN MY HEART! i love you amelia. :D


alright i gtg now. bye!

and love fluttered away at
9:20 pm September 08, 2008

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hello everyone! went JAY kboxing with debbie today! i miss kboxing haha. and jay's songs are very sexy la! we sang many of his old songs and he looked so good in them! very SEXY!!! okay please pardon me im getting very hyper over jay lol.


another reason im getting hyper is because.... I FINALLY BOUGHT MY RIVER ISLAND CORSET! WAHOO! couldnt stand it anymore, so i just bought it haha. yes it's damn expensive but aiya i couldnt resist it. i think it's very pretty lol. shit la i must start saving/earning money again, i've been spending so much. D: and i tried to apply for the enhanced ATM card but they said i needed to be at least 17. NABEH OKAY, and i thought i would have the power of being 16. never mind im gonna apply for the mastercard on my 17th birthday. hoho.


okay laoniang was in the mood for camwhoring today. please pardon my ugly face thanks.



thanks i look very evil here. sorry for the no smoking sign, it was taken in the toilet haha.



amelia baby! -squeals oh that's my new corset thanks.


okay im gonna spam pics now.







haha yes i know i look very porno. the porno me for the SM jay AHAHAHAHA (inside joke sorry). these are the least porno already! eh the last two pics with the shades on, one is bought from thailand($8?)and the other from river island($45). which one looks nicer? lol.


how sia! i think my head is very big. my jaw too. i think i need to go for plastic surgery lol. i want to make my face smaller and nose higher thanks. and eyes bigger? aiya ive no money for that la haha.


alright gotta go sleep soon. i've got a headache today. and it's raining again! perfect weather for sleeping. bye! :D

and love fluttered away at
10:04 pm September 06, 2008

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went for extra chem lesson this morning and was late for half an hour! i waited so long for the stupid bus and then got caught in the jam for so bloody long. but anyway, today's topic was on organic chemistry and im clueless about everything. couldnt concentrate, my mind was still in the holiday mood. haha.


looked over at dodo's notes and saw that she was furiously jotting down notes and scribbling extra notes here and there. well, i don't have this habit of doing so, i find it very messy and untidy. i hate it when my notes are filled with scribbles or highlighters or whatever. i like my notes clean and fresh without any markings. lol. call me lazy but i guess that's just one of my habits. so if you noticed, all my physics, chemistry, maths and even literature notes are all very clean. well, maybe literature not so la, cause we have to make annotations in the book. other than that, i think the only markings i make are nonsensical doodles. lol.


so after the extra lessons, we had cid but there was still some time in the middle. thus me and dodo took a bus to vivo for some lunch first and shop around. i went to the river island shop again and saw the pretty corset i wanted to buy. IM GONNA GO GET IT ONE OF THESE DAYS OKAY. it's so pretty! but the price is still the same, not on sale yet. -.-


wah today is already friday and holidays are ending. NOOOOO I CAN'T BELIEVE IT! i wasted my holidays doing nothing. in fact i havent completed any of my holiday plans yet lol. and i dont even know if there are any holiday homework as i havent checked my file. oh, i missed the PE survey too, i only remembered it after the survey closed. sians.


i think im a very weird person. whenever i listen to music, especially songs from jay, i sort of analyse it and think about it in my mind. i would think what was jay thinking when he was singing this exact line, imagine how would his face be like singing in the recording studio, listening to the back up voices in the background and how it supports the melody, noticing the extra music instruments at the side and wonder who played it, feel the emotion and sincerity of the voice that jay is trying to portray, or what is he trying to tell us with this song... haha yea im weird, i think alot of nonsensical stuff. so when im listening to my music on the bus or train, i tend to be deep in thoughts, appreciating how the music came about and blah blah. i dont like a song just because it sounds nice or what, but rather the effort put into it. and sometimes when i think of jay, i'll smile or laugh to myself when im alone and the people around me will start giving me weird faces. lol.


alright i need to get back and redo my cid report. but before i go, here's a picture of my royce chocolate for you:

it's heavenly i tell you. it taste very different from those cadbruy chocolate or whatever. it's very smooth and milky and not too overpowering sweet. ahaha. i love it! 一分钱一分货. it's all worth it. :D


alright bye! <3

and love fluttered away at
9:07 pm September 05, 2008

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the national museum has beautiful toilets. lol.


i realised i've been blogging less and less these few days. im sorry! yesterday i was trying to upgrade my computer, im so sick of it running so slowly and hanging whenever it wishes. -.- well, apparently i don't know how to upgrade the system, i don't even know if it is possible. lol. im still using windows XP and i tried to upgrade to vista. but i think i need to buy that? i don't know la! all i managed to do is upgraded my internet explorer and downloaded the newest version of java. and remove/uninstall some programs that nobody uses. lol im such a noob at these kinda things, and my com is still equally slow. sian.



wahlau i think i look like an air stewardess here sia. my fringe is so neat lol.


oh btw everyone, MY LOVE FOR JAY HAS COME BACK. i've been neglecting him for quite long, listening to english songs and skipping his songs whenever they were played on my computer or handphone. im sorry jay! i love you forever and ever and i'll never leave you! and for those faggots out there who aren't a fan of jay yet, you're missing out ALOT. Jay is not only a singer, he's a composer/director/actor/magician/basketballer/photographer/artist/stylist/designer all lump into a cute lover boy. he's so amazing i think we should all call him The Divine One like how Him is God for the christians. he's far far better than any elite league and nobody is comparable to even a teensy weensy bit of him. in fact, i think he's so amazing i sometimes can't even believe there's such a talented furball on earth. he's outta this world i tell ya. i think he's like the most influential being earth ever, a trailblazer that is. look at how much he has impacted our lives, his face is plastered over magazines, billboards, his endorsed products, his voice just about the most frequently played on the radio and playlist. everyone wants a piece of jay. lol.


and if you ask me why do i like/love/adore/worship him, i can't really put my finger on it. i love the songs he write, versatile and original. from R&B to bossa nova to cutesy bubblegum pop, he's done it all. and he writes songs for his mother, his grandma, grandpa... how can i not love such a filial boy? and there's this thing about his voice, so full of emotion and sincerity. it's harder to hear it in his newer songs because he's getting more and more commercialised, but try listening to Long Juan Feng or An Jing and you'll know what i mean. and he sometimes sound so sexy like in Mi Die Xiang and sometimes so weak and begging-for-me-to-love-him like in Zui Chang De Dian Ying, and so bouncy and jumpy in Yang Guang Zhai Nan, and so cutesy and fluffy in Tian Tian De. you tell me, how can i not love this guy? and the movies he act in, my favourite has to be Secret. i think the plot is like the best idea ever, and it's director by none other than baby Jay. He's so intelligent(not academically) and smart i don't know what to do. his role in the Secret, Ye Xiang Lun, i feel like squeezing him and squealing like a pig whenever i see him. he's so warm and cosy and comfy and fat and jolly i wanna bring him home and show my mother(quoted by debbie). and off screens, he's such a happy man, always walking round and diseow everybody with his little magic tricks and jokes. and he's always taking the microphone and hosting himself! he thinks his so funny ahaha. i can't stand him anymore i wanna assualt him sia, barge into his room and rape him till he dies. lol. i'm such a sicko, please bear with me. hmm, one thing i don't like about him is his fucking beanie me and debbie hates it with a vengeance. it makes him look like some china ah peh and adding his stubble it makes him look even more motherfucking. lol. but he's still my cute litte lovable pumpkin and i'll love him till the end of time. thanks.


okay enough of my crap, im suddenly surged with this overwhelming love from jay i need to let it off somewhere. so some pictures of my love for you! <3





look at my hungry baby! ahaha.

oh yea he loves his mamma and grandma alot too. such a filial ah beng i wanna squeeze him.


look at his hearty laughter! what is there not to love you tell me. lol.


sorry but i had to add the question mark at the side. look at his face! ahaha. don't you wonder what was he thinking when that picture was taken? lol.

look at my happy boy. oh that fan he's holding is for auction to help the charity. such a kind-hearted marshmellow! and i think that fan is worth tens of thousands. O.o


seriously you tell me, i don't understand why there are people who don't like jay. i like jay and i love jay, not only because of his songs but also because of the person he is. his life is so exciting and flavourful i wanna know him personally but i know that is quite impossible. sians. but i'll love him and support him as a fan, since that's the most i can do. but sad to say i've only got two original albums and the rest is either pirated or downloaded. :X NONETHELESS I LOVE YOU JAY! MWAH.


okay enough about jay, i still have another love of my life who is none other than.....AMELIA!









she's such a lovable baby! she screams/gaggle/cries/babble/shrieks/barfs/shits/burps/pulls my hair/claps her hand/laugh/says mama/wave bye bye/does twinkle stars with her hands/scrunches her face/sticks out her tongue/spasms/sleeps/giggle. she does many many more too, i think it's impossible for me to list it all, you gotta spend a day with her and you will love her too! oh, my sis is bringing her for some baby contest at eastpoint this sunday, i think she will win the happy baby category or something. haha! please support amelia if not she'll give you this face:

"bleh! i don't like you!"


alright i gotta go do my cid report with dodo now. time to appear online on msn. im appearing offline these few days haha. im so sick of msn. -.- okay bye!

and love fluttered away at
4:12 pm September 04, 2008

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hello im back everybody! how's my new blogskin? cute right! debbie helped me with everything, she even made the picture at the top! i think i couldnt have done it without her man, she's so pro at these kinda things. lol. i love you debbie! :D


okay, so ive havent been online since thursday, i'll blog alot today alright! im gonna upload loads of pictures!


thursday was a pretty bad day. got back math paper and i realised i had 8 marks of careless mistakes. and im very angry with myself for that. but not only that, i was also very angry with myself because aiya never mind i shouldnt say it. got back my physics results too and i was very disappointed. 38/70 thanks. although some may say im lucky enough to pass, i dont feel the same way. i know ive done badly for the paper, i wasnt expecting some high marks or anything but it was indeed very painful to receive such a mark. my fruitful physics mugging session with dodo at island creamerie turned out to be not fruitful after all. i had a very urge to cry then and there when i saw the mark but i held it back. i can't bring myself to cry in front of dodo, seeing that she scored so well. i don't want to be the wet blanket and douse her flame of jubilation. but in the end, i could'nt hold back the tears anymore and looked for winnie while dodo was away asking for more marks. sorry winnie for making you cry too, we'll work harder for eoys ya? i love you! and im afraid of breaking the news to my mother as i know she will scold me for sure. she scolds me for everything, even if my results were relatively good. as long as she doesn't see a full mark or at least an A1 she'll have something to say. hais. and yea, that was one reason thursday was bad. that day, i was down with a flu and slight fever and cough. shouldn't have went to school. and to add on, there was cid after school. hais.


but after cid, me and dodo took 97 to cityhall. camwhoring pics ahead:







okay, you must be wondering why dodo had this expression on her face in this picture. something caught her attention in the midst of taking the picture and we were utterly shocked by it.



this guy was sitting in front of us and he was reading a book. nothing much?



























HE WAS READING HENTAI! ahaha, should have expose him to everyone then. stupid pervert.


we went to eat at conrad hotel as dodo had to collect her cake. the food there is damn expensive! like $35 for a plate of fish and chips? i wanted to take a picture of the food as usual but i was afraid the waitress would stop me. such a high class place and im being a suaku taking pictures of the food, so i didnt la. actually we wanted to try the buffet cause dodo said it was very nice. the dessert table is like 4 long tables joined together! but it was $62++/person? lol. didnt had that much money. and everyone else who ate there were other tourists staying at the hotel or rich taitais and their families. so the two of us wearing uniform were quite out of place.whatever la, it was a good experience to eat there. but i don't think i will be going back there anytime soon, burns a hole in my pocket.



the cake that dodo picked up. looks very delicious right? and it doesnt look like any normal cake, it wasn't just sponge in the middle but jelly thingy and cheesecake thingy. lol.


and then we walked around and bought some daisies for teacher's day. okay, now to friday.


there was no lessons on friday as it was the teacher's day celebration. we had a mini class party and mr tan brought his baby daughter along. she reminded me of amelia! so cute and chubby haha. and dodo smeared cake on my face. i need to say this, I HATE CAKE SMEARING. yea so i wasnt amused, in fact, i was rather pissed off. yea i know it was just out of fun but i hate the feeling of cake on my face, so oily and eww. jean's face felt itching after the cake smearing and debbie broke into rashes. see, cake smearing is not good after all. cakes should be eaten, not smeared. haha, but im not angry with dodo anymore la. mr ong sang his opera again and danced too. lol. the song for the dance is very heart-chilling and beautiful.

please listen to it! it's been on repeat ever since debbie sent it to me this afternoon. lol.


and friday was also binsing's birthday! HAPPY BIRTHDAY BINSING! debbie forgot to bring your present but we'll pass it to you another day alright? :D school was dismissed at 12 that day but we had cca after that. well it was a day before the concert and also my last official practice so i went for it. after cca, debbie and i went to eat at ajitei.




we had the salmon/unagi small don(yes, literally) and matcha mochi and kakigori i think. the don was not bad for just $4.80 somemore. and the kakigori were tasty too if not for the really tasteless white dangos. but the matcha mochi was really disappointing, please don't try it thanks. lol. woh i keep taking pictures of the food i eat i think i can just convert my blog into a food blog or something. lol. eating is life's best pleasure. :D


and for yesterday, we had our 知音IV! finally, after months of anticipation and preparation. reached school at 7, changed and went to SCH to rehearse. we had alot of fun and i'll never forget this day as it is my last day with CO. aiya, i'll let the pictures do the talking okay?






i love all of them! percussion is such a cute group of people. oh yea, we had to put on green eyeshadow and red blusher. we all look like sluts okay lol. i helped most of them put on most of their make up haha.


my sister and her husband and amelia and my cousin and her friend came for the matinee show! thank you everybody, i really appreciate you all for coming, although i know it's quite boring for you guys. amelia slept through the concert! thanks for the pretty bouquet of flowers too! <3 and cheehooi and jean and dodo, a pity you guys couldn't come! i was really hoping all of you could come and support us. D:



me and amelia taken by debbie. look at amelia's naughty face! -squeals

this is taken by debbie too. i don't know why i had that face on too. lol.



look at how happy we are. how sia. i miss co! im quite sad to leave actually, i want to continue the happy moments i have with percussion. after all, it's been four long years! i remember the first year with co an